I'm more screwed up then I thought...
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woman,
I have been reading up on Borderline Personality disorder, and other PDs, as my sober RAH/stb ex has had a slew of worse behaviors set in.
Its like Pandoras box, and they talk a lot about CoD.
I need to take a break from it, because the more I read, the more I feel like I have the diseases I am reading about.
Codependency is a maze to me.
Reading about BPD, or ther PDs, and how CoDs fit right in, then dance the dance...it's all just exploding my brains.
Some days you do have to sit back and digest some, and not do that deep looking into yourself.
Some days I just have to live life, and all the stuff I have been learning just starts falling into place.
I have been reading up on Borderline Personality disorder, and other PDs, as my sober RAH/stb ex has had a slew of worse behaviors set in.
Its like Pandoras box, and they talk a lot about CoD.
I need to take a break from it, because the more I read, the more I feel like I have the diseases I am reading about.
Codependency is a maze to me.
Reading about BPD, or ther PDs, and how CoDs fit right in, then dance the dance...it's all just exploding my brains.
Some days you do have to sit back and digest some, and not do that deep looking into yourself.
Some days I just have to live life, and all the stuff I have been learning just starts falling into place.
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Originally Posted by Buffalo66 
woman,
I have been reading up on Borderline Personality disorder, and other PDs, as my sober RAH/stb ex has had a slew of worse behaviors set in.
Its like Pandoras box, and they talk a lot about CoD.
I need to take a break from it, because the more I read, the more I feel like I have the diseases I am reading about.
Codependency is a maze to me.
Reading about BPD, or ther PDs, and how CoDs fit right in, then dance the dance...it's all just exploding my brains.
Some days you do have to sit back and digest some, and not do that deep looking into yourself.
Some days I just have to live life, and all the stuff I have been learning just starts falling into place.
I have been reading up on Borderline Personality disorder, and other PDs, as my sober RAH/stb ex has had a slew of worse behaviors set in.
Its like Pandoras box, and they talk a lot about CoD.
I need to take a break from it, because the more I read, the more I feel like I have the diseases I am reading about.
Codependency is a maze to me.
Reading about BPD, or ther PDs, and how CoDs fit right in, then dance the dance...it's all just exploding my brains.
Some days you do have to sit back and digest some, and not do that deep looking into yourself.
Some days I just have to live life, and all the stuff I have been learning just starts falling into place.
Like B66 above, I too like to read a little, then set it all aside for a few days.
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I did read more of women who love too much. And today I feel better. For me I find that I pick apart everything I do wrong without giving myself props for what I do right.
I have in the past, recognized men who persued me that were not healthy. I nipped them in the bud and didn't think twice about it. I have come a long way in realizing if what I'm doing is because I want to do it, and not out of feelings of guilt or obligation. And today I actually ASKED for something I needed from my A! Baby steps.
I have to remember my name.....woman IN PROGRESS, not woman perfected! lol
Much love to all, and do something nice for yourself today.
I have in the past, recognized men who persued me that were not healthy. I nipped them in the bud and didn't think twice about it. I have come a long way in realizing if what I'm doing is because I want to do it, and not out of feelings of guilt or obligation. And today I actually ASKED for something I needed from my A! Baby steps.
I have to remember my name.....woman IN PROGRESS, not woman perfected! lol
Much love to all, and do something nice for yourself today.
To thine own self be true.
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Do you journal? Journal tonight, or just make a list if you don't journal, of all the good things about you, all the things you do "right," all your pros, all your strengths, etc. Counterbalance that negative analyzing of yourself with good stuff. Glad you feel better.
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Great idea L2L! I did start journaling recently, but all be darned if it wasn't about all my faults!
I think I'll start now
I have GREAT hair & I'm funny!
I have a wonderful relationship with my TEENAGER!
Go me! lol.
I think I'll start now
I have GREAT hair & I'm funny!
I have a wonderful relationship with my TEENAGER!
Go me! lol.
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Your questions are valid WIP.
I do believe it happens to most of us, I know it does for me. When I start reading a new book that someone (many times on here, lol) has recommended and I start running all this 'stuff' in my head, over and over and over and start thinking negatively of myself I have once again gone into:
ANALYSIS PARALYSIS
and I put the book down, go get a fresh ice tea, take the dogs outside to play, etc totally change my mind set. Will pick up said book later, for SMALL DOSES.
I learned a long time ago, that it is Progress not Perfection, and sometimes I do end up going backwards a few steps. I have come to look at those times as a means of getting 'good traction' lol to start to momentum forward again.
So, please, step back from the self analysis, do what you 'feel comfortable' doing and no more.
Thank you for starting this thread!
Love and hugs,
I do believe it happens to most of us, I know it does for me. When I start reading a new book that someone (many times on here, lol) has recommended and I start running all this 'stuff' in my head, over and over and over and start thinking negatively of myself I have once again gone into:
ANALYSIS PARALYSIS
and I put the book down, go get a fresh ice tea, take the dogs outside to play, etc totally change my mind set. Will pick up said book later, for SMALL DOSES.
I learned a long time ago, that it is Progress not Perfection, and sometimes I do end up going backwards a few steps. I have come to look at those times as a means of getting 'good traction' lol to start to momentum forward again.
So, please, step back from the self analysis, do what you 'feel comfortable' doing and no more.
Thank you for starting this thread!
Love and hugs,
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