NC is the only thing that makes me feel better
 

AH left Tuesday for a trip, he'll be home any minute.

Tuesday I was busy day and night. By yesterday evening I was elated. Relaxed and comfy.

It's just what I needed. I remember this.

Now that he's on his way home my anxiety is building and I"m working to keep it down. How can I even see straight with him around?

Because you control you.
You can do this. I usually did not have anxiety when my ex was around,
I became the silent ice queen.
No response, I did not look at him.
since we lived on post, I would just pick up the phone and he shut up.
Breathe in and out. dont let the sucker see you sweat.

you know, my fb sent me his gerber (multi tool) today.
I could have my son bring me down there, and scare the howdy doody out of him with the gerber (if I get it open)
you have no chemicals to calm you?

sorry, I meant my boyfriend. not my fb.
I will be up reading for awhile.
You can call.

Beth

:ghug3

Hi Beth you crack me up! Thank you for the kind offer, I'm going to bed. He's here, stumbling around.

The lease is up in August.