why is this getting to me today? Anyone else go through ups and downs of finding it easy and then hard again to not react to your A's nonsense? I set a boundary with AH. Told him he is welcome to do whatever he likes, but that when X occurs, I will do Y and that he ought not expect that he will get his way as he did in the past. Instantly I get accused of "coercing", "controlling" and "dictating" and get told that it is indicative of an ABUSER (ha ha ha ha ha) to tell him that "unless he does X, I will do Y". Amazing how they twist reasonable statements into distortions that make them a victim. For some reason today it's gotten to me more than it has in a long time... Thanks for listening. |
I understand. They really like to push our buttons. It's like when I told my AH that I needed to 'think about driving him somewhere' and he recanted it to me saying that I said NO. I had to ask him, "No, I didn't say no. What did I actually say?" To which he said, "you said you'd think about it." So, I know he heard me, he just heard NO in his own way. I literally think they have a hearing problem. Like some little goblin in their brain takes in the words and twists them around and the message gets distorted and they respond to that twisted message. Seriously, though, you are dealing with someone who has stinkin' thinkin' and be proud of yourself for setting a boundary. Remind yourself that this is for you, not for him. He can think what he likes, you don't have to react. |
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Suki I laughed my head off seeing that on the other thread and I want to print it out and hang it on my fridge! LOVE it!!!!! |
It's because it's so insane and feels so unjust. Here we are fretting about keeping a roof over our heads, taking care of our children, and they are putting all their energy into making us look like monsters. Which of course we are not. We're just sane people trying to make sense of insanity. |
Instantly I get accused of "coercing", "controlling" and "dictating" and get told that it is indicative of an ABUSER (ha ha ha ha ha) to tell him that "unless he does X, I will do Y". You set a boundary, and he's testing it. One of the ways he's testing it is the way he's made you break before, by accusing you of being controlling, crazy, and hyper-vigilant. You just know what he's doing now, you've named it and you've said you're not going to live like that anymore, and it makes you angry because this tactic is ridiculous, unfair, totally absurd, and completely unnecessary. Unfortunately, you're just not dealing with a sane person. If only he were with it enough to know the same, yeah? Expect the crazy, respond with sanity. |
I have experienced that too! So emotionally exhausting and frustrating. It will suck you dry. I quit talking to him. Problem solved. Email communication is much easier. I don't react as strongly and I can delete/ignore the garbage. Having a record in writing was also a way I could self-validate. |
WTBH - My ABF says that stuff to me ALL THE TIME and so does his alcoholic mother. I have learned it is a manipulation ploy to get me to waiver and accept the drinking as part of our lives. It is soooo frustrating. They actually started to make me feel like I was crazy, a loner, and miserable. I mean, I am all those things NOW living with an alcoholic to some degree because it is depressing. But, ABF and living with him and my accepting it is what is making me nuts. LOL. I know I am a pretty mellow, reasonable, fun human being. I am starting to get ME back the more I work towards a future without ABF. I also get anxiety thinking about going through what you are now. No fun. Just keep on keeping on. Soon (hopefully) he will tire of trying to push your buttons. |
AH is an evil sicko and has now realized that putting things in writing holds him accountable so he "claims" that emailing isn't possible since his sole email is through work. He is the one trying to dictate how we will communicate and it's b.s. What prompted this accusation from him about how controlling I am is that I said he was free to choose not to email all he likes but that I am under no obligation to take his calls whenever he wants. I also reminded him that the agreement between us was that in writing was less emotional and best for all involved and that I intended to stick to that (bc that agreement IS in writing). He is having the equivalent of an adult temper tantrum. I made it clear that I will communicate necessary info about the girls in writing alone because that way there is a paper trail showing I did my part and it is up to him if he wants to choose not to read it. That's what this is all about. Real sane. |
Yeah, the alcohol really just starts to mess up their brains, doesn't it? Sane and rational are NOT synonymous with active alcoholism. My ABF actually is hallucinating things. He thinks the government is planting electrical grids in the sky as part of a diabolical plan to control the weather so that they can control humanity and create chaos and devastation on earth. He told me one day that he was talking to God between some trees. LOL. He imagines I am having an imaginary affair with someone we work with (we work together, blah - I have 2 job interviews lined up this next week) Actually thinks if I am home 10 minutes late due to bad traffic (We live in So. Cal, traffic is sometimes congested at 5:30, good grief) that he and I were out in the bushes or conference room or something stupid. He can't accept we aren't intimate because he is ALWAYS drunk. LOL. So, these guys(girls) who let alcohol ravage their minds are really just sick and delusional. Kind of off topic there, but I understand the manipulations and sickness in dealing with an A. I think we all do. :P |
Originally Posted by chronsweet
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Yeah, the alcohol really just starts to mess up their brains, doesn't it? Sane and rational are NOT synonymous with active alcoholism. My ABF actually is hallucinating things. He thinks the government is planting electrical grids in the sky as part of a diabolical plan to control the weather so that they can control humanity and create chaos and devastation on earth. He told me one day that he was talking to God between some trees. LOL. He imagines I am having an imaginary affair with someone we work with (we work together, blah - I have 2 job interviews lined up this next week) Actually thinks if I am home 10 minutes late due to bad traffic (We live in So. Cal, traffic is sometimes congested at 5:30, good grief) that he and I were out in the bushes or conference room or something stupid. He can't accept we aren't intimate because he is ALWAYS drunk. LOL. So, these guys(girls) who let alcohol ravage their minds are really just sick and delusional. Kind of off topic there, but I understand the manipulations and sickness in dealing with an A. I think we all do. :P |
Originally Posted by wanttobehealthy
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has now realized that putting things in writing holds him accountable so he "claims" that emailing isn't possible since his sole email is through work. It doesn't mean he doesn't try. "DS, hand the phone to Mom." I get the phone, CLICK. What lovely feeling. One glory of the modern age is: there are free e-mail providers AND there is free wifi at public libraries and many other places (fast-food places included) and if AXH's phone is really broken or otherwise out of service, there's free computer use at public libraries. No excuses. If it's important to him, he needs to find a way to make communicating by e-mail work. (Thanks for the reminder earlier, Anvil.) Funny enough, even though his 'work schedule' has kept him from seeing DS for about a month now, he has yet to ask of he could see DS when he's home, or has yet to ask the court to modify the visitation schedule. Some days are harder than others. It's amazing just how much the HALT issue comes into play (with me). Remember to take care of yourself, too. (Talking to both of us, here. :) ) :grouphug: |
Originally Posted by wanttobehealthy
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AH is an evil sicko and has now realized that putting things in writing holds him accountable so he "claims" that emailing isn't possible since his sole email is through work.
Originally Posted by theuncertainty
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One glory of the modern age is: there are free e-mail providers AND there is free wifi at public libraries and many other places (fast-food places included) and if AXH's phone is really broken or otherwise out of service, there's free computer use at public libraries. Hang in there! You don't have to give in to his bully tactics. |
I made it clear that I will communicate necessary info about the girls in writing alone because that way there is a paper trail showing I did my part and it is up to him if he wants to choose not to read it. He even upped the ante, where my request for "in writing" meant getting certified letters. Even a certified letter from his lawyer once! He's such an idiot. Trust me, eventually it gets so absurd that you'll chuckle at it. |
Considering the history between the two of you it's very important that you stick to communicating in writing IMO. Sticking to my guns and insisting on everything in writing and denying my exah access to me was what finally got him to leave me alone. Quacking in writing was too much work for him and of course I could have used it in court. |
After the chaos and craziness of actually separating, the affair, etc I struggled with what you write about. The drama was not there to distract me and it was when the feelings really starting coming up (and for me with only a moderate ability to deal with them). It was really, really hard time for me. No advice on how to make it better and I was without the other complications going on in your life but for me the feelings came when the adrenaline surge was starting to cut back a little....neither was easy. Just be gentle with yourself and if possible expect as little from yourself as you can (I watched a lot of stupid TV during this time....and I don't own any TV channels). |
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