the anxiety of waiting for the "next time"
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I have been trying to convince myself of a few things 1. I don't make him drink. 2. I can't stop him from drinking. 3. If he decides to get drunk, he will be the one to suffer the consequences. 4. I am responsible for my own happiness.
I have already let him know that I will not "pick him up some beer while I'm out" and that my childrens' safety and security are top priority for me right now. Put either of those at risk, and it is over.
I have already let him know that I will not "pick him up some beer while I'm out" and that my childrens' safety and security are top priority for me right now. Put either of those at risk, and it is over.
In my case, XAH could have been in recovery and he STILL would not have been the person I would choose to spend the rest of my life with. I had to come to grips with the fact that I made a poor choice and that it would be a challenge (though not impossible) to change the course of my life. What swayed me was my daughter: she deserved a happy home with a happy, fulfilled mother.
My AH is trying to control his alcoholism on his own. He has cut down drastically in the past year. Went from being drunk every day to only drinking low alcohol beer daily and getting drunk about once a month or so. There is never any abuse, but when he's drunk he is obnoxious, rude, and sloppy. He works very hard and provides a good lifestyle for me and our kids. It is the knowing that he will slip up and have too much, and the wondering which day that will happen on, that is driving me into depression. I am trying to get on with my own happiness and find activities that keep me from going insane. I am also still hurt and angry from the last time (three weeks ago) and need to let go of the anger. I find myself not being physically attracted to him right now, even when he's sober, because I can't stop seeing him staggering around when he's wasted. Any advice would be appreciated. Thank you
Also I know about becoming less attracted because you see the staggering drunk all the time. I really have nothing to offer except I know exactly whay your talking about.
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