OT Back to antidepressants... *sigh*
OT Back to antidepressants... *sigh*
Well not officially but I have been so depressed for the last month now I know I need to look for help once again.
I just have this familiar low feeling when I wake up, some moments I feel cheerful during the day, but once again the familiar "life is not worth waking up for" feeling is back. Which is weird because there has been no major stressor lately, perhaps the holidays and missing family but nothing major.
Tonight I realize it may indeed be clinical depression, DUH...
I read "if it goes on for more than 2 weeks" OMG I have felt this way for years.
Granted I have my good moments and happy times but those are sporadic and take major effort on my part, perhaps this is part of my exhaustion, perhaps it doesn't have to be a daily superhuman struggle.
I realize I am acting just like my mom who "only wants to sleep" and has slept all her life. That is what I have done these days. Sleep, work the minimum I can get away with, some normal stuff here and there just because I have to...
I have forgot about my work lately and am risking it too much. I AM a hard worker. I am just not motivated.
My art project is stalled. And I don't care. I don't have it in myself to give it time lately.
My apartment is a mess and has been and I feel at a loss. I pick up a few things but I just do not find it in myself to clean more. I have time to do it. I just don't.
I also need to run errands and I just put them off. I don't even want to put on decent clothes and go out.
I am stressed out by admitting this but I feel Lexapro coming back to my life. Need to be humble and accept my life can't go on like this. Perhaps no amount of normal therapy or positive thoughts or outside stuff will change the fact I lack dopamine or whatever.
Thinking out loud here.
Thanks for letting me share
I just have this familiar low feeling when I wake up, some moments I feel cheerful during the day, but once again the familiar "life is not worth waking up for" feeling is back. Which is weird because there has been no major stressor lately, perhaps the holidays and missing family but nothing major.
Tonight I realize it may indeed be clinical depression, DUH...
I read "if it goes on for more than 2 weeks" OMG I have felt this way for years.
Granted I have my good moments and happy times but those are sporadic and take major effort on my part, perhaps this is part of my exhaustion, perhaps it doesn't have to be a daily superhuman struggle.
I realize I am acting just like my mom who "only wants to sleep" and has slept all her life. That is what I have done these days. Sleep, work the minimum I can get away with, some normal stuff here and there just because I have to...
I have forgot about my work lately and am risking it too much. I AM a hard worker. I am just not motivated.
My art project is stalled. And I don't care. I don't have it in myself to give it time lately.
My apartment is a mess and has been and I feel at a loss. I pick up a few things but I just do not find it in myself to clean more. I have time to do it. I just don't.
I also need to run errands and I just put them off. I don't even want to put on decent clothes and go out.
I am stressed out by admitting this but I feel Lexapro coming back to my life. Need to be humble and accept my life can't go on like this. Perhaps no amount of normal therapy or positive thoughts or outside stuff will change the fact I lack dopamine or whatever.
Thinking out loud here.
Thanks for letting me share
((TC))) - I've had to go on anti-d's a few times, though not long term. The first time, I cried like a baby when the dr. told me I needed one, told him "but I'm a nurse, I'm supposed to be able to handle anything!".
He told me that it has nothing to do with how strong we are, how much we do the "right" stuff (therapy, which I was in, etc.) it's a chemical imbalance, and it was no different than any other medical condition that needed medication.
I saw it as a weakness, but he helped me realize it really wasn't. Funny thing, I didn't see it as a weakness in anyone ELSE, just me.
I hope you get back on the Lexapro and start feeling better because you really do deserve it.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
He told me that it has nothing to do with how strong we are, how much we do the "right" stuff (therapy, which I was in, etc.) it's a chemical imbalance, and it was no different than any other medical condition that needed medication.
I saw it as a weakness, but he helped me realize it really wasn't. Funny thing, I didn't see it as a weakness in anyone ELSE, just me.
I hope you get back on the Lexapro and start feeling better because you really do deserve it.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
TC ~
haven't you had some major changes in your life lately? That can be overwhelming and cause our emotional & physical bodies to be off a little ~
You have gone thru the check list about that our physicians often ask us to complete when going in for a check up ~ maybe you should print this out and make an appt for a dr visit.
Yes we have the slogan "This too shall pass" but there is nothing wrong with getting the help we need to walk thru the time of "This too shall pass" ~ whether it be counseling, therapy, meetings, or prescribed medication ~
It's about taking care of YOU in a responsible, healthy manner -
and YOU are worth it!
PINK HUGS,
Rita
haven't you had some major changes in your life lately? That can be overwhelming and cause our emotional & physical bodies to be off a little ~
You have gone thru the check list about that our physicians often ask us to complete when going in for a check up ~ maybe you should print this out and make an appt for a dr visit.
Yes we have the slogan "This too shall pass" but there is nothing wrong with getting the help we need to walk thru the time of "This too shall pass" ~ whether it be counseling, therapy, meetings, or prescribed medication ~
It's about taking care of YOU in a responsible, healthy manner -
and YOU are worth it!
PINK HUGS,
Rita
I take them - and I am totally fine with it. They aren't happy pills by any means, but they do help give me the edge I was missing while going through some pretty tough stuff. Acute stress can cause chemical imbalances, as can lack of light in the winter (not as much of an issue for you as for me), hormonal changes as we age, etc.
Maybe instead of looking at it as something you *have* to do, look at it as something you *get* to do that your Mom didn't, and how much better your life will be because of it.
Maybe instead of looking at it as something you *have* to do, look at it as something you *get* to do that your Mom didn't, and how much better your life will be because of it.
(((((TC)))))
You know I am over 30+ years sober and 27+ years working on my codependency issues, lol
What you may not know is that I am chronic depressive and Bi Polar 1 and have been on 'several' anti D's for over 16+ years now.
There is nothing wrong with taking an Anti D if they work for you. Ideally, they do NOT make one feel 'numb'. What they do is 'mellow' one, so that
we/I still know we are 'depressed' sometimes, but is does not become a 'major' crisis.
we/I can still FEEL our emotions.
we/I still know when I am 'cycling' into a 'manic' episode but with other 'tools' that my psych doc has given me I can handle the cycling without looking 'manic' to the outside world.
I have a friend, who is also chronic depressive (diagnosed much earlier than I was) and also Bi Polar 1 (also diagnosed much earlier than I was) and thanks to her Anti D's leads a WONDERFUL life and had/has no issues of being 'less than' because she has to take a 'pill or two' to be what the general public considers 'normal', and she has been on Anti D's now for over 33 years and knows she will be on them the rest of her life. She looks at it as no worse than having to take say a Crestor for high cholestorol, Insulin for Diabetes, etc
How about bringing up the other side of the coin ............................... a positive side ............................. there is a medication that CAN help with this problem, and make it a more viable way to interact with life on a daily basis.
As much as I would love to live back in the late 1800's/early 1900's on a ranch in the Southwest and I still understand that there were a lot of 'nasty', 'miserable' folks (due to their own 'mental' problems) that had no help from the medical field, lol That alone makes me grateful to be living in the now, where there is help, and if taken as prescribed, I too can have a 'fairly' healthy 'outlook' on my life today.
Take the Anti D's, see how they work for you. Doesn't matter if it is short term or long term if they allow you to 'deal' with your problems in a healthy manner.
J M H O
Love and hugs,
You know I am over 30+ years sober and 27+ years working on my codependency issues, lol
What you may not know is that I am chronic depressive and Bi Polar 1 and have been on 'several' anti D's for over 16+ years now.
There is nothing wrong with taking an Anti D if they work for you. Ideally, they do NOT make one feel 'numb'. What they do is 'mellow' one, so that
we/I still know we are 'depressed' sometimes, but is does not become a 'major' crisis.
we/I can still FEEL our emotions.
we/I still know when I am 'cycling' into a 'manic' episode but with other 'tools' that my psych doc has given me I can handle the cycling without looking 'manic' to the outside world.
I have a friend, who is also chronic depressive (diagnosed much earlier than I was) and also Bi Polar 1 (also diagnosed much earlier than I was) and thanks to her Anti D's leads a WONDERFUL life and had/has no issues of being 'less than' because she has to take a 'pill or two' to be what the general public considers 'normal', and she has been on Anti D's now for over 33 years and knows she will be on them the rest of her life. She looks at it as no worse than having to take say a Crestor for high cholestorol, Insulin for Diabetes, etc
How about bringing up the other side of the coin ............................... a positive side ............................. there is a medication that CAN help with this problem, and make it a more viable way to interact with life on a daily basis.
As much as I would love to live back in the late 1800's/early 1900's on a ranch in the Southwest and I still understand that there were a lot of 'nasty', 'miserable' folks (due to their own 'mental' problems) that had no help from the medical field, lol That alone makes me grateful to be living in the now, where there is help, and if taken as prescribed, I too can have a 'fairly' healthy 'outlook' on my life today.
Take the Anti D's, see how they work for you. Doesn't matter if it is short term or long term if they allow you to 'deal' with your problems in a healthy manner.
J M H O
Love and hugs,
Hugs, TC. I posted on my brag thread a rant about a few set backs and issues with the pharmacy staff and insurance. It was related to the current RX I have for anti-d.
I know when my doctor told me we needed to try to help the chemical imbalance right itself, I was incredibly hesitant. But, I wasn't able to pull out of it on my own, and the RX helps keep the lows from getting too low. When he told me that I needed to start, I never thought I'd be upset with insurance for not covering something that works for me.
The way I look at it now is: if I had a broken leg, I'd sure as heck use crutches until I could put weight on the leg again. The anti-d RX is like a crutch, I won't have to use it forever, just until my chemical make-up can balance itself again.
:ghug3
I know when my doctor told me we needed to try to help the chemical imbalance right itself, I was incredibly hesitant. But, I wasn't able to pull out of it on my own, and the RX helps keep the lows from getting too low. When he told me that I needed to start, I never thought I'd be upset with insurance for not covering something that works for me.
The way I look at it now is: if I had a broken leg, I'd sure as heck use crutches until I could put weight on the leg again. The anti-d RX is like a crutch, I won't have to use it forever, just until my chemical make-up can balance itself again.
:ghug3
Now that I have thought about this a bit more, let me also put it this way ...................................... just as I have been given 'tools' to keep my alcoholism/addiction in REMISSION, I have been given 'tools' to keep my diabetes in REMISSION.
My anti D's are a 'TOOL' to keep my chronic depression in REMISSION, and my Bi Polar 1 in REMISSION.
That is all the Anti D's are ............................... a 'tool' to keep your depression in a manageable REMISSION.
J M H O
Love and hugs,
My anti D's are a 'TOOL' to keep my chronic depression in REMISSION, and my Bi Polar 1 in REMISSION.
That is all the Anti D's are ............................... a 'tool' to keep your depression in a manageable REMISSION.
J M H O
Love and hugs,
Thank God for anti-depressants! I wouldn't be alive without them....sometimes only a bunch chemicals can get our thinking back on track. There's nothing wrong with taking them, but I suggest going to a shrink who understands these medications and is much more likely to get you on the right ones, with a minimum of side effects. You will wake up one morning and feel comfortable back in your own skin.
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My ESH about anti-depressants. I have needed some at times with my life....maybe when at surface level was all going pretty well, but I was ready to really, really start working on my stuff. Those anti-depressants allowed me to start to sit with huge levels of anxiety that I had been hiding from myself, huge coping behaviors to cope with the anxiety etc....ALL of it destructive.
For me as I was able to get some other skills in place I did not need the anti-depressants. I have a deal with my therapist though....if she ever thinks I would benefit from them....I would restart no questions asked. I have loved ones on them long-term who did not have that experience which I also think is so appropriate. There is only so much "modification" that can impact those brain chemicals and amounts, without help.
When your knee hurt treatment made it feel better. I do better when I think about my emotional, spiritual and mental health how I think about my physical health.
For me as I was able to get some other skills in place I did not need the anti-depressants. I have a deal with my therapist though....if she ever thinks I would benefit from them....I would restart no questions asked. I have loved ones on them long-term who did not have that experience which I also think is so appropriate. There is only so much "modification" that can impact those brain chemicals and amounts, without help.
When your knee hurt treatment made it feel better. I do better when I think about my emotional, spiritual and mental health how I think about my physical health.
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Good for you for recognizing what you are going through and seeking help with it!
I have taken an antidepressant for about two years — mine is more to control anxiety (I was having panic attacks). And it really has done so much to keep me "even." Ahhh.
I have taken an antidepressant for about two years — mine is more to control anxiety (I was having panic attacks). And it really has done so much to keep me "even." Ahhh.
Hey there TC my dear friend, going for "proper" help is a big step forward and when the medication kicks in, you will hopefully feel less #*%>:%$ than you do now.
I have been on ADs for some years and my Dr and I planned for me to begin tapering off in Jan last year as I felt fine. End of Jan and I am with my mum, 3000 klms from home, freezing cold (in bushfire season???) and my "fine" was totally shattered.
I am still on ADs, and tho I am able to accept losing mum in what was supposed to be her BIG 100th celebration year, I still feel anything but Joyful Jen.
My sister has bought a new car and been out spending since she got her share of the estate, while I got pushed by my finance savvy dtr to put mine into term deposit til I could face doing anything.
As you may have noticed I couldn't even get the energy to post here for the past months.
I have you in my thoughts and heart, and will have a chat to the BOSS when I pray tonite....tell Him that TC needs a boost and something nice to come her way..NOW.
Lots of love,
I have been on ADs for some years and my Dr and I planned for me to begin tapering off in Jan last year as I felt fine. End of Jan and I am with my mum, 3000 klms from home, freezing cold (in bushfire season???) and my "fine" was totally shattered.
I am still on ADs, and tho I am able to accept losing mum in what was supposed to be her BIG 100th celebration year, I still feel anything but Joyful Jen.
My sister has bought a new car and been out spending since she got her share of the estate, while I got pushed by my finance savvy dtr to put mine into term deposit til I could face doing anything.
As you may have noticed I couldn't even get the energy to post here for the past months.
I have you in my thoughts and heart, and will have a chat to the BOSS when I pray tonite....tell Him that TC needs a boost and something nice to come her way..NOW.
Lots of love,
You know, I really think diabetics are wimps for taking insulin. I mean, if they just exercised more or got out among other people more or forced themselves to do something they love, clearly, the chemical imbalance in their bodies would just fix itself...
Oh, and then I think I'm a little upset at you for stealing my brain and typing up my thoughts, too....
I'm deliberately slugging through this winter without antidepressants. Last winter, I was pumping enough adrenaline for a small country to subside on (in the middle of Ugly Divorce Proceedings). This winter, I decided I wanted to see quite how bad it gets without medication. But in doing that -- I've enlisted people to help me out. One of them told me before Christmas that she was worried about me, that I seemed to have lost steam and that I was very irritable for no reason detectable to anyone outside me.
For me, this winter is about giving myself what I need. Last weekend, I didn't leave the house. I stayed inside, stayed in bed, slept a lot, watched favorite movies, ordered in favorite food, and just did what I felt like. Without feeling guilty, without telling myself I really should do all those things people tell you to do when you're depressed.
Because for me, NOT listening to myself was what landed me in depression. Putting myself last. Doing for everyone else. And I can tell you that if antidepressants at some point becomes what I feel I need again, I'll call my doc.
It's not a failure. It's a chemical imbalance. You deal with it, you're better capable of dealing with the rest of life.
Oh, and then I think I'm a little upset at you for stealing my brain and typing up my thoughts, too....
I'm deliberately slugging through this winter without antidepressants. Last winter, I was pumping enough adrenaline for a small country to subside on (in the middle of Ugly Divorce Proceedings). This winter, I decided I wanted to see quite how bad it gets without medication. But in doing that -- I've enlisted people to help me out. One of them told me before Christmas that she was worried about me, that I seemed to have lost steam and that I was very irritable for no reason detectable to anyone outside me.
For me, this winter is about giving myself what I need. Last weekend, I didn't leave the house. I stayed inside, stayed in bed, slept a lot, watched favorite movies, ordered in favorite food, and just did what I felt like. Without feeling guilty, without telling myself I really should do all those things people tell you to do when you're depressed.
Because for me, NOT listening to myself was what landed me in depression. Putting myself last. Doing for everyone else. And I can tell you that if antidepressants at some point becomes what I feel I need again, I'll call my doc.
It's not a failure. It's a chemical imbalance. You deal with it, you're better capable of dealing with the rest of life.
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TC, I agree 100% it's a purely chemical thing. Our brain chemistry has been compromised, so why not fix it? My T wants me on ADs too, and it's not an easy pill to swallow (pun intended). The thought of side effects alone gives me anxiety.
It's worth a shot though. We all know how hard it is to get through that lingering depression. You can always stop if they don't work for you.
It's worth a shot though. We all know how hard it is to get through that lingering depression. You can always stop if they don't work for you.
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hi takingcharge-
i would imagine this choice to take anti-depressants or not is one that most of us here have faced in our journey to heal the traumas we have experienced in this life.
it was a choice offered to me by my primary doctor and also my psychiastrist after certain difficult events.
for myself, my decision was not to take them. i will share my personal reasons for this...
1. i feel that they are toxic to the body and the body stores them in fat cells. very difficult to detox out.
2. i wanted to explore alternatives.
3. in my experience, my mood is greatly affected by my diet. if i eat light, living fruits and vegetables, my mood lightens. if i eat heavy starches, dairy and cooked meat, my mood becomes heavier.
4. i believe in the healing power of the sun and the wind and the water. even a simple walk outside can break a mood for me.
5. for myself, i want to face the pain of this life head on. the buddha said life on earth is suffering. once i accepted that, i could accept the pain as part of this human experience.
6. i know that i feel better if i get outside and move my body. i feel better even if i don't get outside and do some yoga inside. i feel better if i slow down enough just to even do some deep breathing.
i am in no way saying that AD can't be helpful. i'm just sharing my own thoughts on why i don't take them. i'm not saying that i don't get depressed. i do. i just try to use the tools in my toolbelt...diet, exercise, nature, etc. to ease my way through it and weather the storm. i understand the sleepiness too. but i don't give myself a hard time about being tired. if i am tired, i sleep. my whole life, people would make me feel bad for...sleeping! why shouldn't we sleep if we are tired?
naive
i would imagine this choice to take anti-depressants or not is one that most of us here have faced in our journey to heal the traumas we have experienced in this life.
it was a choice offered to me by my primary doctor and also my psychiastrist after certain difficult events.
for myself, my decision was not to take them. i will share my personal reasons for this...
1. i feel that they are toxic to the body and the body stores them in fat cells. very difficult to detox out.
2. i wanted to explore alternatives.
3. in my experience, my mood is greatly affected by my diet. if i eat light, living fruits and vegetables, my mood lightens. if i eat heavy starches, dairy and cooked meat, my mood becomes heavier.
4. i believe in the healing power of the sun and the wind and the water. even a simple walk outside can break a mood for me.
5. for myself, i want to face the pain of this life head on. the buddha said life on earth is suffering. once i accepted that, i could accept the pain as part of this human experience.
6. i know that i feel better if i get outside and move my body. i feel better even if i don't get outside and do some yoga inside. i feel better if i slow down enough just to even do some deep breathing.
i am in no way saying that AD can't be helpful. i'm just sharing my own thoughts on why i don't take them. i'm not saying that i don't get depressed. i do. i just try to use the tools in my toolbelt...diet, exercise, nature, etc. to ease my way through it and weather the storm. i understand the sleepiness too. but i don't give myself a hard time about being tired. if i am tired, i sleep. my whole life, people would make me feel bad for...sleeping! why shouldn't we sleep if we are tired?
naive
TakingCharge -- hey, I just wanted to check in and see how you're doing, friend?
It's rough to feel depressed, and sometimes, I've found that whatever decision you make, you feel like it's the wrong one.
The Swedish government has decided that depression should be treated with CBT rather than antidepressants -- that's the guidelines they're giving their doctors. It irks me. Because every person is different and every situation is different.
Whether you're depressed because of circumstances or because of a chemical imbalance in your brain, it's a whole lot easier to work on whatevertheheck is hard to deal with in your life if you do it from a point of NOT having a chemical imbalance in your brain that makes everything feel overwhelming.
And I HATE the word "happy pills." When I was on antidepressants, they didn't make me HAPPY. They made me NORMAL. I could get out of bed, shower, feed my children, go to work without feeling like every step in the process was like climbing Mount Everest.
I wanted to come back to this because I wanted to make sure you didn't interpret my post as I somehow claimed going med-free is The Superior Way. I've heard enough people tell me that it's "taking the easy way out" instead of "dealing with your problems."
In retrospect, I think antidepressants made it possible for me to put up with a situation I shouldn't have put up with -- but the alternative at that time wasn't divorce, it was suicide. Which means the antidepressants and putting up with an alcoholic husband was the superior alternative.
Taking antidepressants when you are depressed is no more a moral failure than taking blood pressure medication when your blood pressure is high. Sure, there are probably other things you can do to change your depression/BP, but while you're working on that, it's really good if you stay alive. Because making healthy changes don't matter if you're dead.
My favorite doctor of all times was a guy I happened on when I came in to my clinic to ask for antidepressants and my regular doc was out. This guy spent 45 minutes with me, taking a detailed history, and then he wrote me a script. And then he gave me this parable:
Antidepressants are the towtruck. You get them because you've driven into a ditch and you can't get out on your own. But they're just the tow truck: They'll get you out of the ditch and back on the road. That's all. It's up to you to determine WHY you ended up in the ditch in the first place -- driver error? mechanical problems? black ice on the road? -- and also where you are going now that you're back on the road. Antidepressants don't fix the reason you crashed, they just make it possible for you to go on and figure out where you're going and how to avoid crashing again.
And I hope today is a better day for you!
It's rough to feel depressed, and sometimes, I've found that whatever decision you make, you feel like it's the wrong one.
The Swedish government has decided that depression should be treated with CBT rather than antidepressants -- that's the guidelines they're giving their doctors. It irks me. Because every person is different and every situation is different.
Whether you're depressed because of circumstances or because of a chemical imbalance in your brain, it's a whole lot easier to work on whatevertheheck is hard to deal with in your life if you do it from a point of NOT having a chemical imbalance in your brain that makes everything feel overwhelming.
And I HATE the word "happy pills." When I was on antidepressants, they didn't make me HAPPY. They made me NORMAL. I could get out of bed, shower, feed my children, go to work without feeling like every step in the process was like climbing Mount Everest.
I wanted to come back to this because I wanted to make sure you didn't interpret my post as I somehow claimed going med-free is The Superior Way. I've heard enough people tell me that it's "taking the easy way out" instead of "dealing with your problems."
In retrospect, I think antidepressants made it possible for me to put up with a situation I shouldn't have put up with -- but the alternative at that time wasn't divorce, it was suicide. Which means the antidepressants and putting up with an alcoholic husband was the superior alternative.
Taking antidepressants when you are depressed is no more a moral failure than taking blood pressure medication when your blood pressure is high. Sure, there are probably other things you can do to change your depression/BP, but while you're working on that, it's really good if you stay alive. Because making healthy changes don't matter if you're dead.
My favorite doctor of all times was a guy I happened on when I came in to my clinic to ask for antidepressants and my regular doc was out. This guy spent 45 minutes with me, taking a detailed history, and then he wrote me a script. And then he gave me this parable:
Antidepressants are the towtruck. You get them because you've driven into a ditch and you can't get out on your own. But they're just the tow truck: They'll get you out of the ditch and back on the road. That's all. It's up to you to determine WHY you ended up in the ditch in the first place -- driver error? mechanical problems? black ice on the road? -- and also where you are going now that you're back on the road. Antidepressants don't fix the reason you crashed, they just make it possible for you to go on and figure out where you're going and how to avoid crashing again.
And I hope today is a better day for you!
TC,
Please don't beat yourself up over this, if you have done all you can to "right the ship" and cannot do it alone then please accept the help. Prozac saved my life, and with the improvement in my temper it probably save some other peoples lives too (left lane drivers, 21 items in the 20 item express lane, etc.) anyway I know how bad my life was before Prozac and how great it is now.
I will make a selfish plea, we need you here, we need you at 100%, you are a benefit to this board, a friend to all of us, and you are a source of good advice, so big hugs from me, you do what is best for you, I know you touch many lives, God bless you.
Bill
Please don't beat yourself up over this, if you have done all you can to "right the ship" and cannot do it alone then please accept the help. Prozac saved my life, and with the improvement in my temper it probably save some other peoples lives too (left lane drivers, 21 items in the 20 item express lane, etc.) anyway I know how bad my life was before Prozac and how great it is now.
I will make a selfish plea, we need you here, we need you at 100%, you are a benefit to this board, a friend to all of us, and you are a source of good advice, so big hugs from me, you do what is best for you, I know you touch many lives, God bless you.
Bill
My RAH has taken them for years. When he first went on them he was shocked at how much better he felt, as he had struggled with depression since childhood. He's tried to go off them, but always has to return. His doctor told him for some people anti-depressents are a maintenance medication, which he hates, but had to accept.
SR friends, thank you so much for ALL your posts, God bless you ((HUGS)) Your compassion is one of the best gifts... I got all teary and the cats kept staring at me lol...
naive I have pondered about your post, as you know I am in the same boat.. yoga, kind of vegan, some time in nature, LOTS of alone time, sleep... maybe its that I have met rather "normal" people lately and I have noticed how much effort it takes for me to feel OK when for others its just much easier to enjoy their day... I don't know how to explain it but it has been more clear to me that no matter if things are fine in the outside and I cover the HALT rule and stay No contact with Overall Toxicity (triggers, violent movies, news...) AND do some things I like... there is just something missing.. now almost becoming 30 I am also pondering if I am willing to spend the next 30 years like this...
I mean I plan to go back to therapy etc.. but I also go "ok, to keep crying about the past??" maybe that's what I need but I also feel I have spent way too much time in the past already... I donīt know...
Anyway, I was wondering if there is anything else I might be able to try and I recalled some alternatives like Bach Flowers made me feel better, so I'll give that another shot... if in one month I don't see much difference I'll go to the psychiatrist and do whatever he or she recommends period... won't stop to think anymore...
Thank you so much for all your support in this thread. Yes its interesting not to think badly about anyone who uses meds but when it comes to me Oh Boy... I spent so many days beating myself up for this and for many other things.. it did not help that my knees have given me trouble and I have not been able to move around much... feeling lonely but today there was some small shift within towards a better place Thank God...
I have never left the 1st Step, admitting life is unmanageable, when I admit it and stay lonely its a horrible place to be in, this site is a life saver. Thanks again for your input and for your understanding and ESH. Especially now that I need to limit driving and do stuff that helped before (goodbye box for now!) SR is reminding me what sanity looks like...
(naive/Jadmack/Impurrfect/laurie special thanks to you, who have supported me all these years and keep doing it)
naive I have pondered about your post, as you know I am in the same boat.. yoga, kind of vegan, some time in nature, LOTS of alone time, sleep... maybe its that I have met rather "normal" people lately and I have noticed how much effort it takes for me to feel OK when for others its just much easier to enjoy their day... I don't know how to explain it but it has been more clear to me that no matter if things are fine in the outside and I cover the HALT rule and stay No contact with Overall Toxicity (triggers, violent movies, news...) AND do some things I like... there is just something missing.. now almost becoming 30 I am also pondering if I am willing to spend the next 30 years like this...
I mean I plan to go back to therapy etc.. but I also go "ok, to keep crying about the past??" maybe that's what I need but I also feel I have spent way too much time in the past already... I donīt know...
Anyway, I was wondering if there is anything else I might be able to try and I recalled some alternatives like Bach Flowers made me feel better, so I'll give that another shot... if in one month I don't see much difference I'll go to the psychiatrist and do whatever he or she recommends period... won't stop to think anymore...
Thank you so much for all your support in this thread. Yes its interesting not to think badly about anyone who uses meds but when it comes to me Oh Boy... I spent so many days beating myself up for this and for many other things.. it did not help that my knees have given me trouble and I have not been able to move around much... feeling lonely but today there was some small shift within towards a better place Thank God...
I have never left the 1st Step, admitting life is unmanageable, when I admit it and stay lonely its a horrible place to be in, this site is a life saver. Thanks again for your input and for your understanding and ESH. Especially now that I need to limit driving and do stuff that helped before (goodbye box for now!) SR is reminding me what sanity looks like...
(naive/Jadmack/Impurrfect/laurie special thanks to you, who have supported me all these years and keep doing it)
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