Sad, but not at all surprised
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Sad, but not at all surprised
History: I've been struggling with my ABF of one year's drinking. Multiple times he promised to cut back. Twice (when I was ready to leave) he promised to quit entirely -- only to go to AA for a week and then stop. He doesn't drink in front of me, but it's clear he's still drinking.
Tonight was my last night in town for a while (seeing my family over Thanksgiving) and he said he couldn't wait for us to be together, etc. I knew the second I saw/smelled him he had been drinking. He was in a real mood. His wireless wasn't working. Also a tragic local news story was eating at him (it paralleled the loss of his sister when he was young -- an event that still troubles him greatly and yet he's never received any kind of counseling). We talked a bit about his feelings, and while I wasn't happy about the drinking (though I didn't mention it) I was glad he was opening up. But things deteriorated. He began acting agitated and antsy - getting worked up over the smallest of things (this is a recurring pattern) and being difficult and argumentative about everything.
I left in tears, so frustrated, particularly the timing. I hate that I'm leaving for Thanksgiving with a heavy heart and that this will be on my mind during precious time with my family. Then again, what better time to be around the people that love me the most!
While I'm disappointed, I'm not "devestated," like I would have been before. I really have taken back reigns on some aspects of my life, including work, stress management, spirituality and fitness. This weekend, I'll have plenty of time to read more of Codependency No More, and jot down some notes for my therapy session Tuesday -- just started seeing one, and she's great!
Thanks for listening! Needed to get it out!
Tonight was my last night in town for a while (seeing my family over Thanksgiving) and he said he couldn't wait for us to be together, etc. I knew the second I saw/smelled him he had been drinking. He was in a real mood. His wireless wasn't working. Also a tragic local news story was eating at him (it paralleled the loss of his sister when he was young -- an event that still troubles him greatly and yet he's never received any kind of counseling). We talked a bit about his feelings, and while I wasn't happy about the drinking (though I didn't mention it) I was glad he was opening up. But things deteriorated. He began acting agitated and antsy - getting worked up over the smallest of things (this is a recurring pattern) and being difficult and argumentative about everything.
I left in tears, so frustrated, particularly the timing. I hate that I'm leaving for Thanksgiving with a heavy heart and that this will be on my mind during precious time with my family. Then again, what better time to be around the people that love me the most!
While I'm disappointed, I'm not "devestated," like I would have been before. I really have taken back reigns on some aspects of my life, including work, stress management, spirituality and fitness. This weekend, I'll have plenty of time to read more of Codependency No More, and jot down some notes for my therapy session Tuesday -- just started seeing one, and she's great!
Thanks for listening! Needed to get it out!
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Lyn, thank you so much for your response and sharing your experience -- congratulations to you on your engagement and the wonderful place you are in right now!
That is a great question you asked, and it is one I plan to give a lot of thought.
Happy Thanksgiving!
That is a great question you asked, and it is one I plan to give a lot of thought.
Happy Thanksgiving!
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We talked a bit about his feelings, and while I wasn't happy about the drinking (though I didn't mention it) I was glad he was opening up. But things deteriorated. He began acting agitated and antsy - getting worked up over the smallest of things (this is a recurring pattern) and being difficult and argumentative about everything.
That talking though kept me hooked for a long time. If he just got all the hard stuff from growing up out. If he just got all the stress from work out....he would not need to drink. It has been easier for me since I learned that lesson.
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