OT It had been a while ...
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OT It had been a while ...
... since I last gazed upon someone's eyes and thought "I will never get tired of this"..
I met the guy like 5 years ago, we flirted, kissed a couple of times then (and nothing more)... we have talked sporadically... often sharing the stupid jokes we have together... (we have played word associations since 2005)
I met him again recently and the spark was still there. He was a gentleman and made me laugh, he even wore lotion, I donīt remember when someone had made efforts to look great for me LOL.
He is an engineer and a drummer, got a first CD released recently. We talked for many hours. Nothing else happened but I noticed I have started caring about him.
Long story short he might visit me in the city I live in by the end of October.
I am getting excited about seeing him again.
I am often cynical but I accept I am getting enthusiastic. Hopefully I donīt ruin this with my codependency issues. Nor with projections about the future.
I met the guy like 5 years ago, we flirted, kissed a couple of times then (and nothing more)... we have talked sporadically... often sharing the stupid jokes we have together... (we have played word associations since 2005)
I met him again recently and the spark was still there. He was a gentleman and made me laugh, he even wore lotion, I donīt remember when someone had made efforts to look great for me LOL.
He is an engineer and a drummer, got a first CD released recently. We talked for many hours. Nothing else happened but I noticed I have started caring about him.
Long story short he might visit me in the city I live in by the end of October.
I am getting excited about seeing him again.
I am often cynical but I accept I am getting enthusiastic. Hopefully I donīt ruin this with my codependency issues. Nor with projections about the future.
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I may go back to Bangkok once again to visit my sister and nephew again, next year.
I had invited another girlfriend and her boyfriend before. The guy knows them too, we all used to work together and got along fine.
The guy might even go, too, he texted me today asking about my plans...
I am feeling better nowadays, talking to other singles my age.
Anyway, I will make my plans, not wait for him or anyone. If others can join me there, fine.
Be right back, need to email my dear sister and to look for airplane tickets.
I had invited another girlfriend and her boyfriend before. The guy knows them too, we all used to work together and got along fine.
The guy might even go, too, he texted me today asking about my plans...
I am feeling better nowadays, talking to other singles my age.
Anyway, I will make my plans, not wait for him or anyone. If others can join me there, fine.
Be right back, need to email my dear sister and to look for airplane tickets.
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I hesitated in posting this TC....
You posted, "Hopefully I don't ruin this with my co-dependency issues. Nor with projections about the future".
" I may go back to Bangkok once again to visit my sister and nephew next year."
"The guy might even go too he texted me asking about my plans."
Believe it or not, I'm gently drawing attention to a disconnect. Look forward to his visit in October and see what next year brings when it gets here. It's difficult to stay in the moment sometimes, but it often works out better in the long run.
Cheers TC.
You posted, "Hopefully I don't ruin this with my co-dependency issues. Nor with projections about the future".
" I may go back to Bangkok once again to visit my sister and nephew next year."
"The guy might even go too he texted me asking about my plans."
Believe it or not, I'm gently drawing attention to a disconnect. Look forward to his visit in October and see what next year brings when it gets here. It's difficult to stay in the moment sometimes, but it often works out better in the long run.
Cheers TC.
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Thanks gerry and everyone!
Yes that is why am I posting here... for all kinds of feedback...
Its a struggle, getting excited about things. Been in Apathy Land for too much time. Then I get excited and I realize it may be due to a fantasy. Will I ever be normal? LOL
So far I have been the most detached person with him (and with friends in general) and our friendship has stayed well.
I am excited about my trip though...
Trusting is a tricky one, then also dealing with people that say "yes" lightly and then donīt follow through. Anyway living the present moment, or today is great advice. Will do that. Thanks for your honesty....
Yes that is why am I posting here... for all kinds of feedback...
Its a struggle, getting excited about things. Been in Apathy Land for too much time. Then I get excited and I realize it may be due to a fantasy. Will I ever be normal? LOL
So far I have been the most detached person with him (and with friends in general) and our friendship has stayed well.
I am excited about my trip though...
Trusting is a tricky one, then also dealing with people that say "yes" lightly and then donīt follow through. Anyway living the present moment, or today is great advice. Will do that. Thanks for your honesty....
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I was planning to go to a Film festival in a town 4 hours away from where I am living...
The guy wants to go with me. I am excited about this possibility..
Then another guy ("friend with benefits"..) told me he would also like to go and meet me there
So I get no action for.. a long time, and now two romantic interests will be in the same town.
Anyway I do not know if I am up for much, maybe just some kissing , so I will book my own place in a hostel of my liking then let them sort their trip out. Maybe I see one the first weekend and the other the second weekend (why do I feel guilty typing this if I am not committed to anyone?)
The guy wants to go with me. I am excited about this possibility..
Then another guy ("friend with benefits"..) told me he would also like to go and meet me there
So I get no action for.. a long time, and now two romantic interests will be in the same town.
Anyway I do not know if I am up for much, maybe just some kissing , so I will book my own place in a hostel of my liking then let them sort their trip out. Maybe I see one the first weekend and the other the second weekend
(why do I feel guilty typing this if I am not committed to anyone?)
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