Rough Weekend
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Rough Weekend
I had a hard weekend. I still have this big whole in my life and in my heart where my XABF used to be. Its been three weeks now since I talked to him. Sometimes I let my anger get the best of me. The other night I was out with some friends and my XABF's best friend was there. He asked me to drive him home so that he could "talk" to me about my XABF. We listened to some music and I ended up becoming a bit intmate with him. He really wasn't interested in talking about the X at all. The whole time I was with him I was so angry at my X I was thinking horrible thoughts like "ha take that!" I was so angry I had tears stinging my eyes. The best friend didn't notice at all, of course. I feel horrible about it now.
Then I went out the next night and ran into an acquaintance who proceeded to tell me that I make him sick. That I was dumb for wasting my time on the X and that everytime he saw me he wanted to run the other way. I was shocked. It made me feel so horrible that I just wanted to crawl into a hole somewhere. I feel humiliated and crushed. I am also feel ashamed because I still want to call and text the X everyday. I feel like this is never going to end.
Then I went out the next night and ran into an acquaintance who proceeded to tell me that I make him sick. That I was dumb for wasting my time on the X and that everytime he saw me he wanted to run the other way. I was shocked. It made me feel so horrible that I just wanted to crawl into a hole somewhere. I feel humiliated and crushed. I am also feel ashamed because I still want to call and text the X everyday. I feel like this is never going to end.
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Join Date: Sep 2006
Location: Butte, America
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it ends.
It sounds more like
not only was HE not good...
but no one around him is any good,either.
What a great opportunity to create a new circle for yourself -
leave the bottom feeders in the swamp
and move on to clearer waters.
It sounds more like
not only was HE not good...
but no one around him is any good,either.
What a great opportunity to create a new circle for yourself -
leave the bottom feeders in the swamp
and move on to clearer waters.
I'm no angel!
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Location: tampa, fl
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There is only one person that can make this end....it's you.
Revenge is not going to accomplish anything, it will just pull you down further.
As for his friends, let them go, it's all a childish game, one that you do not need to play.
There are many fine, non addicted guys out there, start circulating, Mr. Right is out there.
Revenge is not going to accomplish anything, it will just pull you down further.
As for his friends, let them go, it's all a childish game, one that you do not need to play.
There are many fine, non addicted guys out there, start circulating, Mr. Right is out there.
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Sounds like he runs with a very immature crowd.
It is natural to miss him and feel bad. Time does heal.
I know it is frustrating to hear this when we are in the midst of our sadness but let yourself feel sad or you will 'act out' by trying to get back at him. That won't make you feel better.
Working through your feelings as they come is the best way.
Post here. It helps too!
It is natural to miss him and feel bad. Time does heal.
I know it is frustrating to hear this when we are in the midst of our sadness but let yourself feel sad or you will 'act out' by trying to get back at him. That won't make you feel better.
Working through your feelings as they come is the best way.
Post here. It helps too!
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