BobbyJ

Well its been a few since I have been on here.

Alot has changed since the divorce.
I am finding me
I am finding peace
I am finding I dont like chaos anymore
I am finding I dont have much patience for bullcrap anymore
I am finding I like to live simple
I am finding I like peace
I am finding I love to be around happy people
I am finding I love to be around non-drinkers
I am finding I hate to be around drinkers
I am finding that I dont and wont tolerate people that raise their tone of voice to me
I am finding that I love to sleep alone in nice clean sheets without
the smell of whiskey breathing down my neck
I am finding that I can change my hair color anyway I want, without no
complaints
I am finding out that dinner does not have to be served by 6pm
I am finding out that cereal is a great dinner sometimes
I am finding out, that I am learning to love myself!!

AND... I am finding out...(( IT TAKES WORK ))

I am finding out, that there are more hurting people around us, than we
know. Ones that are affected by alcoholism, drugs and abuse.

I have found that its been a real healing tool for me. When I can stop
and touch another persons life by sharing a website address or handing
them a phone number to a Alanon class or an abuse hotline number.

I remember when I first started this journey about 6 months ago, I was so lost.

I didnt know who to call or where to even begin.

The more you open up & share your recovery with others, they
will either (leave it) or (take it) or (NEED IT)

From your neighbors to your bankers, you will be amazed on how many
people fight the same diesase.

Im not tooting my horn, Im just expressing how much a tool, has helped
me

A few months ago, I didnt know who I was or where I was going
I could not see any light at the end of the tunnel
I was so use to living in chaos, fear, and all of the other bull crap feelings
I use to believe all of the lies and didnt understand the alcoholic
I thought he could and would just stop drinking
I thought rehab was the miracle cure
I even thought the mind games & crappey attitudes would stop

Boy, that seems crazy now.....

I have hid my sorrows, pains, embrassments for years from living with an
alcoholic

Today....I Am Free!!!!

TakingCharge999

Bobby, wonderful post.

Congratulations!

I see myself in your list- me too, to everything, lol.

Crazy and.. unnecessary.

Yes, this is what life is really about. Sanity, light, joy. Even my sadness, longing, anger, or whatever... is different now. I do not sink in it anymore. I identify a peaceful place within I will eventually return to.

I am more able to see reality now and see the truth about people and about myslef.

One of the main truths is that, I am a good person who deserves a good life, plain and simple. And I am giving it to myself.

Thank you for your uplifting post, I needed it!

m1k3

I am finding that I am now happy for no reason at all.
I am finding out what people mean by WORKING a recovery.
I an finding out that I like me.
I am finding out what wonderful people my daughters are again.
Even though I now live alone I am finding out what it is like NOT to be isolated.
I am finding out that recovery is a way of life.
I am finding out how good it is to have clarity and that I will never willingly give it up again.

AND I am finding out how many friends I have here at SR. Thank you all for your wisdom and strength, you have saved my life.

Your friend,

chicory

((((BobbyJ)))
Your post made me smile, and I am happy for you, in your newfound peace .

rock on sister!

catlovermi

Absolutely MAGNIFICENT post, and I'm so pleased for you!

CLMI

LexieCat

Great post, Bobby, I can SO relate.

Incidentally, pancakes with bacon and maple syrup makes a great dinner, too. So does an omelet.

dollydo

Such an inspirational post, you made my day!

Tuffgirl

So happy for you, BobbyJ. Nice to hear you feeling better and happier. Hope things are well with your daughter and grandbaby.
~T

m1k3

Bobby, I hope you don't mind me tacking on a few more to a wonderful post. When I read it I HAD to put down what I was feeling at the time.

Thank you again for that post.

Your friend,

LaPinturaBella

Sounds like you've come out the other side intact, getting healthy and well on your way to a wonderful, happy life. Amazing how quickly it turned around once you stopped fighting and gave it to HP. I am absolutely thrilled for you!!!