Peace...It does come in time Thought I should check in with my updates Lets see, divorce was final, daughter & granddaughter move back home with me. Almost 6 months alone in the house Had some lonely nights, thats for sure Wondered how the hell I was going to survive without him Cried over the broken lawnmower, the weeds, the bills Have been selling as much as I can to pay the bills The house is still up for sale Working lots of hours and working in full circles somedays with my head caught in a freaking cloud Rejoicing when its 5oclock and time to come home I need a part time night job...What to do? What to do? So I got my head thinking, and Im starting to build a website and will do that from home at nights The house is no longer quiet with a baby The kitchen isnt spotless anymore Dont have time or the patience for the XAH stupid phone calls anymore. I have moved onto bigger and better things in life. Daughter snaps at me & I nicely tell her, "Listen up, I respect your feelings & where you are walking today and I would appreciate it, if you respect mine. I just divorced that type of behavior and my life doesnt need that anymore" My daughter & I have discussed my changes. She actually approves!...LOL She asked me, "How come you werent like this when I lived at home?" Because, "Mommy, was married to an alcoholic" I still have my days, where I miss the man I married But I dont miss the days married to an alcoholic..... I am really working hard on Letting Go & Letting God I am really digging deep inside of me And finding all of the bones that I can find about what it means to Let Go & Let God... In everything that I do..... ...Im enjoying peace! |
Originally Posted by BobbyJ
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T Dont have time or the patience for the XAH stupid phone calls anymore. I have moved onto bigger and better things in life. |
Even though you are dealing with another serious situation at the moment, I have to say...YOU SOUND AMAZING!!! Calm, cool, collected, living in the here and now. Way to go Bobby J!!! |
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BobbyJ, :tyou that was a great post. I still have my days, where I miss the man I married But I dont miss the days married to an alcoholic..... Congrats on pulling it together. You made my morning. Your friend, |
Originally Posted by BobbyJ
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I still have my days, where I miss the man I married But I dont miss the days married to an alcoholic..... I am really working hard on Letting Go & Letting God I am really digging deep inside of me And finding all of the bones that I can find about what it means to Let Go & Let God... In everything that I do..... ...Im enjoying peace! No matter what he thinks, I am so glad I bought this little house for me and my girls. It has changed the course of our lives. Last night, my 17 yr old made dinner and we watched a few episodes of the Law & Order SVU marathon together. It was quiet, calm, peaceful. This morning, hot coffee, SR, flowers outside my window, watching the neighborhood pyscho squirrel fly from tree to tree, its calm, peaceful. Looking forward to my weekends again, because I know they will be quiet, peaceful. We have used the word "oppressed" here in past threads, and I never realized just how oppressed I felt until I got away from it all. BobbyJ, so happy for you. I hope you continue to remain calm and centered, even in the midst of chaos. Your daughter's decisions were not coincidental... I think she saw what you were doing and found her strength to do it herself. You are a great role model! |
We have used the word "oppressed" here in past threads, and I never realized just how oppressed I felt until I got away from it all. |
We get so used to the constant drama that it starts to feel normal. That statement explains my life...from childhood to now. Drama has been pretty constant and the times it is not there I feel the anxiety... alanon is sure helping me on that one! BobbyJ you are inspiring! |
thank you for you message It's nice to hear your story of success, though you probably think you are not there yet. I beg to differ. You successfully left an A and I commend you. HIGH FIVE GIRLFRIEND.:c011::c011: |
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