starlight40

I know I know, you guys don't understand why I'm waiting. I guess the way I have it set up is what is most comfortable for me right now.

Anyway, I'm getting out almost everyday now, as the weather has been better, and my feet are my only mode of transport.
The on reserve doc. has increased my meds for my addison's ( he's very aware of the stress I am under )
So I am starting to take care of myself.

I even have a couple of babysitting jobs lined up for a bit of cash in the next couple of weeks.

Its s crazy, a couple of weeks ago, this would be all I would need to become complacent again. But not now.... now its all a means to THE END.


Feeling a bit sad today....it comes and goes that stinkin thinkin.
But I'm learning.
I've even tried to reach out the the resident drug and alchohol person here..haven't caught him yet.
I'll keep trying.

If codie is an addiction, then SR is my patch. Thanks for the fix! Starting each day here really helps me keep my head on straight throughout the day!

StarCat

I am so glad you have a plan, and are working on you.
Isn't it such a great feeling?

starlight40

Yes Starcat it is!
And I happened to run into the DA councellor. I only had time to tell him that "we should catch up", as I was with someone. But it was a start!

It's so strange, watching my AH and his ever-worsening mood, just watching him roll back down that hill, that for so many years I struggled to push him up.
But I am not doing anything. Just watching. Truly heartbreaking.

I am also acutely aware that if he were to know of my web. activities, it would get really ugly. But I'm not letting the fear keep me down.
I am taking precautions now.

wicked

Starlight,

I am very happy for you!
You are taking care of yourself and found a way to make a few bucks.
This is the good stuff that leads to a happy ending for you.

Beth