Cantdoit

It does suck. I've been going from sad to mad and back and forth. Frustrating ... I'm doing some journalling to help me focus on what I want instead of focusing on what "could" be. Stupid addiction....

Cantdoit

LOL you young thing you

When I really think about it, other than having him as a "roommate" not much will really change.
I handle all the bills and finances
I do the grocery shopping
I do the other house shopping
I do the cleaning/cooking
I arrange the family stuff/occasions etc
I'm alone all the time already as he basically lives in the garage
I wont have sex with him if he's been drinking so I'm practically a virgin again

Hmmmm

blwninthewind

funny you mentioned the journalling.
I tried to journal for years...I gave it up after a day or two because it was just so upsetting putting what I was living with in words on paper. made it real and I could see it for the abuse it was. So rather than deal with it head on...I stopped writing.
Brillant huh? who's the one in denial here? lol
But now...
I journal. I feel how I do and write it all out. All the bad and the good.
and there actually IS good now.
I can see that come August (maybe before, God willing)....I will be free and I'm looking forward to it even if I'm sad at the same time.
It's just confusing ....
even now.....I don't know. I feel like I'm the sick one.