What do you make of this?
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This is what I see (divorced for almost 3 years from exah).
Blah blah blah blah blah, quack quack quack quack. I am all better now but look what you did you ruined everything by leaving me and our kids have a broken home look what a catch I amnow pleasetakemeback. Quack quack quack, blah blah blah.
Blah blah blah blah blah, quack quack quack quack. I am all better now but look what you did you ruined everything by leaving me and our kids have a broken home look what a catch I amnow pleasetakemeback. Quack quack quack, blah blah blah.
Hey, Thumper. You sound so strong! I think being on the receiving end of that e-mail, I'd have been a quivering mass of self-doubt (to paraphrase NoDay's signature).
I have to concur with Hydrogirl and Smacked. It struck me as manipulative, full of self-pity, self-centeredness and guilt trips. What a load.
I have to concur with Hydrogirl and Smacked. It struck me as manipulative, full of self-pity, self-centeredness and guilt trips. What a load.
I don't see a SPECK of ownership in that rambling.
There's nothing for you to be responsible FOR, IMO.
I think all the 'wah wah' about family is just outright manipulation
and he's even now looking for someone to blame.
yeesh.
There's nothing for you to be responsible FOR, IMO.
I think all the 'wah wah' about family is just outright manipulation
and he's even now looking for someone to blame.
yeesh.
Great post Beth, this almost made me snort coffee through my nose!
I think he's right where he needs to be. Surrounded by people who can teach him how to "accept life on life's terms." Meanwhile, you can get on with your life and delete his emails.
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After 90 days, I still hear a lot of "why me? poor me!! boo-hoo I'm a victim and you're the meanie!" from my RAH. Not much responsibility there, either.
I have struggled with wondering WTF with AA? Isn't this what the program is supposed to teach?
I have struggled with wondering WTF with AA? Isn't this what the program is supposed to teach?
Then my sponsor quietly but firmly explained to me that ................. I had drank for 24 years, 20 of it alcoholically, and how in the he!! could I expect to be all well in 90 days? roflmao boy did that open my eyes.
Then I got to AlAnon at 3 years sober, raging about my AH that had changed addictions to Gambling but was exhibiting all the behavior of an active alcoholic and again I got the message, take my eyes off of him and put them back on myself, that he was not going to get better in my 'time line' but his. MY EXPECTATIONS again, sheesh.
Unfortunately, he never did get well. Found out about 6 years after our divorce that not only was he still gambling but had gone back to drinking also. He died in January of '09.
I guess over these many years, I have learned a wee bit of patience as long as I have some 'distance' from the current A in my life (be it a family member or a sponsee) and I have learned that MY EXPECTATIONS only cause me more harm than good. I just sit and watch, lol
Again, Thumper, you have a great program of growth working for you, YOU GO GIRL!!!!!
Love and hugs,
I agree with everything that has already been said, especially the self-pitying, manipulative, quackiness of his email, and your intelligent decision not to respond, but I wanted to add:
Maybe one of the reasons this communication affected you so much is that, beneath the cynicism, you naturally would like to see him succeed in his recovery, if for no other reason than his relationship with your kids. So you are feeling torn between wanting what is best for him and dismissing any hope that he gets better as a total crock.
Maybe you could find some serenity in the thought that, if he does continue to work a program of recovery, he might come to see the damage his behavior has caused, take responsibility for it, and even be in acceptance about the outcome. Stranger things/ bigger miracles have happened. The good news is that you already know you are powerless over anything that happens with him, and can let go and focus on your life. Which, I might add, seems like it is getting better!
Maybe one of the reasons this communication affected you so much is that, beneath the cynicism, you naturally would like to see him succeed in his recovery, if for no other reason than his relationship with your kids. So you are feeling torn between wanting what is best for him and dismissing any hope that he gets better as a total crock.
Maybe you could find some serenity in the thought that, if he does continue to work a program of recovery, he might come to see the damage his behavior has caused, take responsibility for it, and even be in acceptance about the outcome. Stranger things/ bigger miracles have happened. The good news is that you already know you are powerless over anything that happens with him, and can let go and focus on your life. Which, I might add, seems like it is getting better!
I think it is interesting how so many "recovering" alcholics compare themselves to others who are worse off. My AH used to come home from alanon and talk about how bad off others lives were. Its like "wake up" your own life is in shambles. Do they just not see that for what it really is? I agree that it seems a little manipulative.
More important...What do YOU think? Do you think responding to him would provide YOU any peace or happiness?
More important...What do YOU think? Do you think responding to him would provide YOU any peace or happiness?
This is why they tell us to look for the similarities, not the differences.
Maybe he is thinking about those feelings, but you know what I noticed? Not once did he take ownership of them. "Why did this happen to us?" "I just keep thinking about the boys and why did this have to happen?" "I wanted better for our boys and us and that is hard for me."
Even if he's trying to confront his demons, he is still in manipulation city, the way it sounds to me. But that's just me.
Even if he's trying to confront his demons, he is still in manipulation city, the way it sounds to me. But that's just me.
Maybe one of the reasons this communication affected you so much is that, beneath the cynicism, you naturally would like to see him succeed in his recovery, if for no other reason than his relationship with your kids. So you are feeling torn between wanting what is best for him and dismissing any hope that he gets better as a total crock.
Lol, Yeah - He probably named it Hurricane Thumper at this point!
That was my point as well. thanks DG and SC.
YOur family wasn't destroyed by a meteor strike in the suburbs.
That's what I mean by ownership.
And I loved the pink cloud/combat boots thing.
This is where WE learn
to read progress)(or not)
put the phone down
and get back to what we were doing before the call/text.
That's what I mean by 'distance'.
It can be news
I can feel something about it
but I don't have to bleed all over the carpet any more either.
YOur family wasn't destroyed by a meteor strike in the suburbs.
That's what I mean by ownership.
And I loved the pink cloud/combat boots thing.
This is where WE learn
to read progress)(or not)
put the phone down
and get back to what we were doing before the call/text.
That's what I mean by 'distance'.
It can be news
I can feel something about it
but I don't have to bleed all over the carpet any more either.
I love in his email how everything is minimized:
"They want me to stay on for more counseling".
Really means, 'I'm still a hot mess and they are strongly recommending more counseling to deal with the severity of my drinking'.
I doubt they are begging him to stay because they just love talking to him!
(Who is it that does those 'translations?' on here)
I see it also in my RABF, this disconnect with how their drinking wreaked havoc on the lives of their children, destroyed families, broke marriages.
I think it is the fact that processing the enormity of the damage drinking does to a family is too big to handle so early in recovery so it is better to be wistful and nostalgic.
You aren't being cynical, you are dealing with reality. Let's hope he gets there some day. Stay strong!
"They want me to stay on for more counseling".
Really means, 'I'm still a hot mess and they are strongly recommending more counseling to deal with the severity of my drinking'.
I doubt they are begging him to stay because they just love talking to him!
(Who is it that does those 'translations?' on here)
I see it also in my RABF, this disconnect with how their drinking wreaked havoc on the lives of their children, destroyed families, broke marriages.
I think it is the fact that processing the enormity of the damage drinking does to a family is too big to handle so early in recovery so it is better to be wistful and nostalgic.
You aren't being cynical, you are dealing with reality. Let's hope he gets there some day. Stay strong!
Just thinking the part that would make me cynical is how he says - "You are so special to me, your being pregnant and how you handle that..."
To me it reminds me of my AH manipulation for me to look at the good things we share (as if he is God and totally responsible for the miracle of having wonderful children) and also my AH immaturity to not be able to relate to me in a healthy emotionally giving and receiving way and only see me as the mom of our kids.
Thanks for the share. Even though not divorced but separated, I have trouble not feeling cynical when my AH makes statements like that email and insists I have a problem for not being positive.
Hoping we will meet in the middle someday with AA and Alanon help!
I like when someone said earlier it's just a feeling and it passes. That is helpful to me too.
To me it reminds me of my AH manipulation for me to look at the good things we share (as if he is God and totally responsible for the miracle of having wonderful children) and also my AH immaturity to not be able to relate to me in a healthy emotionally giving and receiving way and only see me as the mom of our kids.
Thanks for the share. Even though not divorced but separated, I have trouble not feeling cynical when my AH makes statements like that email and insists I have a problem for not being positive.
Hoping we will meet in the middle someday with AA and Alanon help!
I like when someone said earlier it's just a feeling and it passes. That is helpful to me too.
To thine own self be true.
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Where I'm at with this sort of thing anymore, is he's dumping on you (IMO). What he's saying causes me anxiety. Which makes me try to figure out why he's saying what he's saying? Like, is he working a program and that's why he's writing this? Is he just sharing? Etc. Then I STOP, because I realize there are too many questions. And whenever dealing with ANYONE causes this anxious feeling, or too many questions, I know there's something wrong. Can I change or fix that? Nope. What do I need to do to bring myself peace? Ignore everything he said and throw away/delete the note. And go about making myself as happy and comfortable as I possibly can.
Or what Coyote said: QUACK!!!
Or what Coyote said: QUACK!!!
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I suppose to let ya know what's going on.
They want me to stay for individual anxiety counseling for a couple more weeks.
I'm having trouble accepting a broken family.
It's getting better, but still think everyday and sometimes several times a day which gives me anxiety about us and our kids being in the 50% of couples that divorce.
I so much wanted better for ours boys and us that it hard for me.
Our boys are to special not to have the best, but they have good counselors helping me.
I think of other families having problems, but our is to close and such wonderful boys and a team compare to others.
They say it's good to get it out, but can't get ride of these feelings, thinking we are a better or wanting better for our family.
I don't think I can ever get over it, but need to be able to function and somewhat happy.
I think why did this have to happen to my family,
we are such a caring people toward brothers, mom, and dad.
Thanks for listening, don't have to have feedback.
You are so special to me, your being pregnant and how you handle that,
only I will know and the memories of the boys, I have that forever and that's very special.
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oh naive. You do have a way with the decoding.
Thumper, if my X ever wrote me something like that, I would be a puddle of marshmallow on the floor. I wouldn't give in, but I would have a hard time keping myself together. It pushes all my buttons, but it ends with "how dare you have walked out on us!" I sometimes have to grapple with my anger a little bit - especially where my kids are concerned.
Thumper, if my X ever wrote me something like that, I would be a puddle of marshmallow on the floor. I wouldn't give in, but I would have a hard time keping myself together. It pushes all my buttons, but it ends with "how dare you have walked out on us!" I sometimes have to grapple with my anger a little bit - especially where my kids are concerned.
To thine own self be true.
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OMG Naive, I think I'm in love with you! (just kidding).
I'd like to add to this:
Let me just lay on the GUILT really thick. Guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt. YOU! It's all you! See what you are doing?!!? You are breaking the family up and the kids are going to be ****** up and it's all your fault!
Emotional BLACKMAIL. I used to fall for this kind of thing all the time. Without even being aware of it. TOXICITY, that's what it is. Yuck.
I'd like to add to this:
Our boys are to special not to have the best, but they have good counselors helping me.
i think if i talk about the boys and the counseling, she might buy back in. i have no intention of taking accountability for the harm i have done the boys...in fact, it's all your fault. you're the one who broke up the family by kicking me out.
i think if i talk about the boys and the counseling, she might buy back in. i have no intention of taking accountability for the harm i have done the boys...in fact, it's all your fault. you're the one who broke up the family by kicking me out.
Emotional BLACKMAIL. I used to fall for this kind of thing all the time. Without even being aware of it. TOXICITY, that's what it is. Yuck.
my 18 year old was on heroin and I got a more insightful letter than that at 30 days..and wowza they are still hot messes at 30 days in my experience..I heard no apologies for anything, just complaints...I would take this as confirmation that the dicvorce was a great idea..
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