twinkle1987

hi guys, how you all doing? I recently posted my story about my break up with my in denial alcoholic ex boyfriend. Finding this site has been a life saver as its taught me alot about myself; i now know i am a codie as well as an ACOA. Learning about these things has taught me alot about my previous relationships but also what to do to work on myself and my own happiness.

I've decided to post today as i'm having a "down day". The ex bf phoned me at the start of the week to arrange meeting up this weekend for a chat, its been 2 weeks since the break up. We both admitted that we missed eachother but also that we needed to be away from eachother for the time being. He wanted to keep our meeting secret? Supposedly to stop people interfering. I ended up having to cancel our meeting due to other comittments. I get the feeling he was annoyed i canceled. After being so keen for meeting i think he is now having second thoughts as am i... Im having a down day as today should have been our meeting. I miss him badly but he hurt me so much

I havent spoke to him in four days. Not speaking to him the first week didnt bother me as he ended up chasing me anyway finding excuses to text me. But this week iv heard nothing since i said i couldnt go to our meeting.

twinkle1987

sorry forgot to add, the aim of this meeting wasnt to get back together, i made sure he knew this. I dont what i want in all honesty. I miss him lots but ive also been given the opportunity of a fresh start away from him. Guess im finding it hard to get go of my feelings. He wanted to meet up to "see how we get on together and have a chat about what happened".

trapeze

Twinkle,

I hope you do something nice for yourself today. All of this takes time.

delurker

I can so relate. I hope you can move forward. I'm struggling with some very similar issues and feelings. Sigh. Hang in there. Maybe writing things down and defining what you want for your future would help? Good luck to you.

PHIZ007

Hi Twinkle...welcometo SR it keeps many of us sane!

Sorry to hear you are having a down day. As trapeze sys do something nice for yourself today.....be it a lovely bubble bath, watch a nice movie, read a magazine, play your favourite music.....the bubble bath always does it for me!

Keep reading, keep posting......its really great here as people really do understand.

Sorry for all those that are struggling right now.....hang in there.....

Take care Phiz