Hi again......
 

well, I introduced myself in newcomers to recovery...wrong place...I went to the domestic violence counselor today. Just introduced ourselves, essentially. I told her I didn't really know why I was there. She said she thought we could build my self esteem. I bought the book suggested. It is enlightening to say the least. I simply feel very low. Head hurts, feel really sad. want this emptiness to go away. unsure what my purpose in life is.......just lost....

gosh, i have been there and felt that....what i did? lite a candle...and watched the flame for awhile....dont know why...i just wanted some CALM in my life at the time...sometimes...the answers just come in a calming place within...

hang in there...THIS TOO SHALL PASS

Hugs, passionfruit. My first day talking with a domestic violence counselor was the same way. She made a point of telling me to not plan anything immediately after talking with her except some way to pamper myself - long soak in the tub, candle light or even just going to bed for a nap or the night. Personally, I went to bed, but I hadn't been sleeping much/well for a long time; I needed that sleep.

Please take some time to pamper yourself in some way. As much as it doesn't feel like it, it will pass, Fourmaggie is right.