lulu1974

Hello SR!!

Got some texts from the exah last night. Not that it matters but just to point out I filed for divorce and did all the leg work etc. Not that it was easy for me or that I was happy about it but I knew there was no other options. He texted me last night saying.."I am wondering if I made the right decision" and so I asked about what and he said "divorce". I didnt even go there but the short conversation that is was he kept saying he guesses I filed on his behalf. Ok. You can all laugh. Its a teeny bit funny.

So I told him since the divorce I dated someone I cared about and although it didnt work out I have hope for true love one day. I couldnt help it. It was a zinger from me to him.

So of course I started to think about Jack and got mellow about it. So my HP decided to whip me into shape real quick.

I was going through some pictures on facebook and noticed a comment about an old friend from grammer school. We were best friends for a couple of years but then just as these things happen we got into high school went our separate ways and didnt keep in touch. But she was someone always special to me and I have a lot of good memories with her in them. I knew she was sick in high school. She had kidney issues but I heard she had a transplant and was healthy. I just found out she died about 18 months ago. I am not sure why I didnt hear about this sooner. I no longer live in that town and I dont keep in touch so that is the reason.

I took a step back and realized how lucky I am. She was only 34 and such a beautiful person inside and out. I am healthy and have so much hope and a future. My other friend has cancer and she is in remission and she is my age.

Its times like this where I realize how much I have to be grateful for. Life is so short and anything can happen. Its time I stopped moping around over non important things like men.

Wow. What a day. I am of course sad about my old friend. I think of her fondly.

Hugs
Lulu

barb dwyer

What a thoughtful post.

I recently signed up on fb for a high school group.
I graduated with like .. a million people.

One of them
got the worst Christmas present ever from her doctor.
Stage four, inoperable metastized... all of those nightmare words.

ANds she was told on Christmas Eve.

She and I rode horses together as kids.
My horse spent the night with her horse, and all that pre-suburbia stuff.

It has put me in much the same frame of mind.

Now she went to college,
became a pharmacist
got rich
the whole nine yards.

And it isn't going to save her.

SO I connect completely with what you're saying.

Thanks for posting that.

It's made for a completely ... unique... holiday season for me.

Phoenixthebird

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Freedom1990

Lulu, I am sorry about your old friend, and will certainly keep your other friend in my prayers.

I am reminded once again to just live in the moment.