crystal226

Quit marriage counseling with AH today and am going to move forward doing my own therapy and Al-anon. With me I brought a list of boundaries and expectations to going back and I gave them to him and stated them very clearly in front of the counselor. The list included quitting drinking with some kind of help (counseling, AA, whatever) for at least 30 days and keeping the house in reasonable order and childproofed or I will not go back to work on the relationship. I also spoke very firmly about AH not seeing the kids unless it was at my parents house (where I am staying) or with his parents because of the incidence on Monday where he "fell asleep" while watching them and didn't feed them dinner. I was so scared going into it that I wouldn't have the courage to move forward, but I did it and it turned out better than I thought. He just sat there and didn't say much of anything and after he left without a word or a glance. I know that him giving me my peace won't last and I pray I will be strong when the reaction from him comes. It is a little hard to stay detached and not think too much about how he is doing right now, but me I am doing good and I feel so free!

dollydo

Keep telling yourself: I have nothing to fear but fear itself...believe me, it will help.

I am glad that you are experiencing a sense of freedom, we all deserve that!

Live

WOW! Great work on your part, absolutely fabulous!

Thumper

Holy Cow. That is awesome!!

Jadmack25

Crystal, congrats on tackling the issues head to head, in spite of fear and worry.

I found this and think you deserve it.

crystal226

I like that one. For me the quote of the day has been "Let go and let god." A LOT easier said than done and I'm not a very religious person, but it helps to just repeat it every time I get into my worry about AH thought process.

coffeedrinker

good work, crystal.

it is a process, ya know? steps at a time, which at first feel weird, uncomfortable, and just wrong. but soon it will come much more naturally.