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Hayfmr 10-21-2010 08:24 PM

What To Do
 
I just found this site tonight so this is my first post. My wife of over 20 years is an alcoholic. Hs been one for most of our marriage although she was sober for about 8 years. 2 years ago she started drinking again when the kids started leaving home. She always bing drinks in seclusion. When she starts, she drinks herself to oblivia and the only reason she quits is because I starve her out. I am what you would call the opposite of an enabler. Been thru several programs. The last one was a month inpatient and cost us 30K. Worked for a few months. The kids are all grown and gone now and along with me thay have had it. Here is my dilema. I am ready for a divorce but since I own my own successful business a divorce would be winning the lotto for her. No one to make her quit drinking and enough money so the she would not have to work and could drink all she wanted. I am fully convinced that she would drink herself into oblivia. But thats the mother of my children destroying herself. So by being concerned about her welfare am I caring or codependent?

Thumper 10-21-2010 08:48 PM

I'm sorry you are in such a difficult position. Welcome to SR. I have found it so helpful.

My first thought is that concern for her welfare is caring. Disregarding your own is codependent.

sesh 10-22-2010 01:31 AM

That is hard.
But eventually you will have to decide is your priority your own well being even at that cost.
But I believe to decide that first you have to come to realize no matter what you do she will continue destroying herself, what you're doing now, by staying with her, is at best slowing down a process. So you're not stopping her, you're not preventing the end result from happening you're just postponing it, while your own life is wasting away. I know how hard it is to watch a parent of your children on that killing path, but there is nothing you can do to change that, until she herself decides to do so. That is hard, that stinks, that is heartbreaking but it is true.
So, if you take this to be true I guess the only question you need to ask yourself is do you want to stick around and watch her distruction from the first raw or do you want to move away and do what is good for you.
Take care

Bernadette 10-22-2010 05:53 AM

Stay in the moment. Awfulizing possible future events usually brings me nothing but grief and anxiety and things never shake down the way I imagine they will in my head!

It sounds like the next right thing for you to do is talk to a lawyer and get the divorce paperwork going. Take it one step at a time. Perhaps she will have to blow through all that "lotto" money and find herself on the other side alone and wasted before she will seek real lasting recovery. You simply cannot predict or control outcomes.

Do what's best for you. More will be revealed....
gentle (((((hugs)))))
peace-
B

TeM 10-22-2010 08:26 AM

Wow. I can really relate to your post... except for the successful business part, I'm in a very similar situation.

I've been married to AW for 30 years. I've only realized within the last two years that she's an alcoholic, so we haven't gotten to the rehab stage, and maybe never will. She won't admit having a problem, even though she fell and broke her ankle while drunk two weeks ago.

Our daughter is 18, but still living at home. I'm facing the same dilemma that you are; do I stay with AW and watch her destroy us both, or do I take the expensive, painful step of divorcing her? She's technically disabled, so I'm pretty sure the divorce court would take me to the cleaners. Still, that might be better than the almost certain financial destruction that awaits if I try to stick it out. This latest little episode is going to cost us several thousand out of pocket... who knows what damage she'll do to herself next time?

Anyway, welcome to the forum. I, for one, will be watching your posts, hoping for a little inspiration.

Good luck.

Learn2Live 10-22-2010 08:44 AM

I have learned that when faced with a decision about my life, I must consider my OWN needs first and foremost. If considering someone else's needs will cause me harm or degrade my own peace and/or serenity, I have to ignore the other person's needs to whatever degree necessary. Yes, it feels and sounds selfish but we are all responsible for our ownselves.

Freedom1990 10-22-2010 09:24 AM

If an alcoholic wants to drink him/herself to death, a way will be found.

She's been through several programs. She's been given tools for recovery. She has made the choice to return to active alcoholism.

Your 'starving her out' isn't a solution. It's trying to control the alcoholism.

When we start living in the solution for ourselves, life does get better. :)

Hayfmr 10-22-2010 10:36 AM

Thanks for all the support. I know that she will find a way to drink until she decides to quit. All I can do at the moment is make it really difficult for her to get the booze. As soon as I can I am going to meet with a lawyer and explore the options. Then once she sobers up she will be presented with a choice. Seek help and quit drinking or she is out.

TeM 10-22-2010 10:38 AM


If an alcoholic wants to drink him/herself to death, a way will be found.
That seems to be what's happening in our household. When AW broke her ankle, Daughter and I found her stash and put it in the garage. (We chose not to throw it away because we knew AW would just buy more first chance she got, and we can't afford it) We figured that, since she's immobilized, she at least wouldn't be able to drink while she's recovering.

Yeah, right.

Anyway, AW has a drinking buddy that visits her once or twice a week while I'm at work. After her last two visits, I noticed that a bottle of Amaretto was missing from the garage. I asked AW about it, and she said Drinking Buddy had taken it home with her. Okay. This week, another bottle was missing, and AW seemed a little tipsy, and one of her whiskey glasses was sitting in the sink.

My guess is that Drinking Buddy came and poured AW a couple of drinks. Maybe she took the bottle with her, or AW has it hidden in the pile of crap she keeps next to her recliner. I just don't have the energy to look for it.

I realize that this may be considered enabling behavior on my part, but right now, I'm just too exhausted to fight with her every day.

acdirito 10-22-2010 12:07 PM

:welcome

Dear Hayfrm, You asked "So by being concerned about her welfare am I caring or codependent?" Please checkout "Patterns and Characteristics of Codependence". These patterns and characteristics are offered as a tool to aid in self-evaluation. http://www.coda.org/tools4recovery/patterns-new.htm

You need to decide for yourself if you actually want a divorce from your wife or if you're just using her drinking and your belief that you can rescue your wife to avoid from getting divorced? You need to remember: You didn't CAUSE it! You can't CURE it! and You can't CONTROL it!

As codependents get older we need to ask ourselves a couple questions:
If I suffered a massive stroke, heart attack, or some other dehabiliating disease would my alcoholic be there to be my caregiver?
Would I want, or could I, become a caregiver for the alcoholic?

I have been forced to know my dry drunk husband wouldn't be there for me. I have been forced to acknowledge that I don't want to be my DDH's caregiver. Throughout our marriage he wouldn't listen to me. As a patient it is necessary to listen to the caregiver.

If you decide you want a divorce from your AW, your attorney can discuss this in your mediation. You might be able to set up some type of settlement handed to your AW in semi-annual annuities where she receives her money based on the condition of her staying sober.

:headbange

Only God can turn a mess into a message!

Hayfmr 10-22-2010 07:42 PM

For the moment the AW is sober. I have an appointment with a lawyer next week to find out where I stand legally.

Hayfmr 10-24-2010 11:06 AM

Just a quick update. AW wife was very creative and obtained booze Friday evening. She is now out and in withdrawl. She has also been suffering from back pain and says she is in bad pain. Both from the back and withdrawl. She decided she wants to go the the local emergency clinic for help. Will be interesting to see if she volunteers the alcohol part or if I have to tell them.

So far she has not tried to blame me this time. I really want to see her helped but I am still going to seek legal advice for just in case.

hurtandangry 10-24-2010 11:19 AM

Hey Hay,

I’m really to new at this dealing with an alcoholic stuff to be of much help.

What I do know is that you really only have two choices;
1) Put up with `em the way they are
2) Don’t

Working on "you" for the sake of a better "you" is a good thing but it doesn't address the previous two choices.

The `ol you can lead a horse to water analogy applies to alcoholics aptly.

Best!


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