Good days and bad days
 

My sober alcoholic wife (who has been sober since before we met) has decided that she can no longer live with me and has left our marriage of sixteen years and two beautiful girls and is pursuing a relationship with another AA member (we are still talking and sharing the kids). I am devastated, heart broken and in a pit of despair but it was through this crisis that I came to learn about codependency and my role in our relationship.

My head is going through constant cycles of denial and anger. I have moments of clarity and serenity which are then overcome with sadness and desperation.

I know I am powerless over the situation and I have accepted that I have to let her go so she can begin her journey just as I have to begin mine. I am handing my will and life over to my HP on a daily and sometime hourly basis.

There are good days and there are bad days. This is a bad one.

I am currently reading "The New Codependency" and with the help of a psychologist and Al Anon meetings, am working through my issues.

I don't know what the future holds for us but I do know that I am now on my path to recovery, recovery from my codependent behaviours.

I am praying for my HP to show me His will for me and the courage to carry that out.

Thanks for listening.

So sorry my friend, and send wishes for strength to you and your girls. You are doing the right things with the Codie book and handing over to your HP.

I too, am sorry, give yourself time, be patient, you will be ok.