What about that lovey dovey stuff?
It's not as seductive as it sounds.
I write for a living, and one of my favorite gigs is covering local events. So i study sub-cultures. I've written about Comedians, Bands, the Huron Valley Gun Collectors Show, Burlesque, and the annual tuba concert in the park.
So, when i say all sub-cultures behave in similar ways, it's because I study them and write about them. Even the tuba players.
I write for a living, and one of my favorite gigs is covering local events. So i study sub-cultures. I've written about Comedians, Bands, the Huron Valley Gun Collectors Show, Burlesque, and the annual tuba concert in the park.
So, when i say all sub-cultures behave in similar ways, it's because I study them and write about them. Even the tuba players.
I posted this topic because he was laying it on pretty thick lately.
I ate it up.
Fell for it,
believed it (or at least wanted to so much).
But they are just words. Now I feel like sort of an idiot for thinking he had some capacity to care back in the state he is in. I 'know' better. He has again gone silent (for obvious reasons, i.e. drinking) and here I sit.
Seemed like years ago he said all those nice things. I've said this before and I'll say it again, it is like loving a ghost.
I want my sweet and sober guy back but I don't know how long or what it will take to see him again. All I know is my life goes on. It is like standing on a dock and watching a ship sail off and it goes farther and farther into the distance.
Sorry, I am just very sad. The person he really is without the booze would hate to know what his other self is doing to me. I hate that I am doing this to myself.
I ate it up.
Fell for it,
believed it (or at least wanted to so much).
But they are just words. Now I feel like sort of an idiot for thinking he had some capacity to care back in the state he is in. I 'know' better. He has again gone silent (for obvious reasons, i.e. drinking) and here I sit.
Seemed like years ago he said all those nice things. I've said this before and I'll say it again, it is like loving a ghost.
I want my sweet and sober guy back but I don't know how long or what it will take to see him again. All I know is my life goes on. It is like standing on a dock and watching a ship sail off and it goes farther and farther into the distance.
Sorry, I am just very sad. The person he really is without the booze would hate to know what his other self is doing to me. I hate that I am doing this to myself.
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I'm not going to demonize her. Yes, she is an alcoholic, and a troubled person, but she loved me dearly, and she still does. The addiction was stronger than her, and I know that it broke her heart that she couldn't give me what I needed.
She was a manipulator, as part of the addiction, but I know her feelings for me were sincere.
She was a manipulator, as part of the addiction, but I know her feelings for me were sincere.
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