Is it true?
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I just want to say thank you to all of you. I went to the barbeque with all of your words in my head, and I felt so much better.
It's true, I felt courageous, and good about myself, I am growing and learning about myself and I felt proud of that.
I realized too from your responses that I have been recovering, and putting that first in my life, and when I let my exABF back in, and he was not making HIS recovery his first priority, we were at odds. I would have liked things to work out differently, but I cannot control his recovery. So I am left alone to focus on mine. But this was my choice, and although every day is not easy, I am ok.
The barbeque was fine, I stayed in the moment, and chatted with everyone, and I had a very nice time.
Thanks to all of you, and my HP.
It's true, I felt courageous, and good about myself, I am growing and learning about myself and I felt proud of that.
I realized too from your responses that I have been recovering, and putting that first in my life, and when I let my exABF back in, and he was not making HIS recovery his first priority, we were at odds. I would have liked things to work out differently, but I cannot control his recovery. So I am left alone to focus on mine. But this was my choice, and although every day is not easy, I am ok.
The barbeque was fine, I stayed in the moment, and chatted with everyone, and I had a very nice time.
Thanks to all of you, and my HP.
I also realized that I was getting some ego needs met when everyone oohed and aahed over how great his "girl" was - a real stand-by-you-man I was. If I had a dollar for everyone in his life who told one of us how "good" I was for him. And this even from the counselors - he was very fortunate and he blew it.
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