Personality traits of the alcoholic?
Ginger,
I guess my take is that I think you were doomed from the start - or at least way back.
Everything in your past, your development, led you to this point. That includes the good things that are coming your way, and also the painful things you have had to confront.
The key is breaking the cycle. As LaTeeDa, says, you need to fix what's broken. Awareness is not enough, although it certainly is the starting point.
As my first therapist said,
"Christine, if you hadn't chosen your husband (alcoholic), you would have just found another one."
This was a turning point in my recovery. After the anger wore off, that is
I guess my take is that I think you were doomed from the start - or at least way back.
Everything in your past, your development, led you to this point. That includes the good things that are coming your way, and also the painful things you have had to confront.
The key is breaking the cycle. As LaTeeDa, says, you need to fix what's broken. Awareness is not enough, although it certainly is the starting point.
As my first therapist said,
"Christine, if you hadn't chosen your husband (alcoholic), you would have just found another one."
This was a turning point in my recovery. After the anger wore off, that is
At the beginning? Or in the middle? Or on whatever topic jumps out at you?
How about this:
"Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain."
L
How about this:
"Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain."
L
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Instead of wondering what made him the way he is, start trying to figure out what about you led you to an alcoholic. Those are the types of questions that result in progress and personal growth.
L
I think people are just trying to guide you back to focusing on yourself and starting to heal.
When I left my EXAH, there were a lot of things I didn't understand.
Losing a relationship, no matter how dysfunctional, is painful. You will get no argument from me on that.
What can you do today, this moment, to help you move forward, even if it's an inch at a time?
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I get where you are coming from Ginger....one question leads to 20 more.
The problem I ran into was it became a mission for me to prove that he is the problem, not me.Instead of asking "why" I just keep trying to tell myself "he is an A, he is bi-polar, he is unstable and I cant change it".
Trying to see the situation clearly so you dont make the same mistake is wise. Dont quit posting...I think its great to vent to people who understand where you are coming from.
The problem I ran into was it became a mission for me to prove that he is the problem, not me.Instead of asking "why" I just keep trying to tell myself "he is an A, he is bi-polar, he is unstable and I cant change it".
Trying to see the situation clearly so you dont make the same mistake is wise. Dont quit posting...I think its great to vent to people who understand where you are coming from.
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Yeah, I was well aware XABF had a problem lonnnnng before the relationship ended. I suppose you could say I ignored the red flags, but it's probably more accurate to say that I thought that his drinking wouldn't be an insurmountable problem, that somehow we'd get through it.
I trusted my instinct, I knew what was wrong. The thing is, I didn't know what to do with that instinct.
In all honesty, I don't think I would have EVER left. That scares the sh*t outta me.
I trusted my instinct, I knew what was wrong. The thing is, I didn't know what to do with that instinct.
In all honesty, I don't think I would have EVER left. That scares the sh*t outta me.
I know alot more about myself, my own faults, unreasonable expectations but also how things should be for me, not for anyone else..that is the really important bit - its a learning curve and we have to take what we can from that and see it just that way...an experience that adds not detracts.. Lillyx
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charlie - how do you think that focussing on him will help you?
If you imagine your life as a 7 foot line with birth at one end and (hopefully) death at, say, 84 at the other end*. Your involvement with the alcoholic is, what, 2 inches? What about the other 82?
*does my math work?!
If you imagine your life as a 7 foot line with birth at one end and (hopefully) death at, say, 84 at the other end*. Your involvement with the alcoholic is, what, 2 inches? What about the other 82?
*does my math work?!
my take on it
We have had a primary relationship early in our life - in our formative years. We have not had our emotional, and developmental NEED met, if that person was not meeting them. We cannot move on to the next developmental stage unless it is, which is why it is SO CRUCIAL for parents to be there for their children. When it is the opposite sex parent, the one we learn LOVE from, we continuously seek out the fulfillment of that need in either that, or subsequent relationships. We tend to end up with partners that have a similar make-up (in some way or other) to that primarly person.
In my case, my father met the financial needs of the household, but not the emotional ones. He did not readily show affection, or send me the message that I was loved unconditionally. He was emotionally cool, and non-expressive, non-demonstrative. I had an alcoholic mother. I have chosen addicts who are also distant emotionally, and who do not meet my needs in the relationship, who do not deal with conflict effectively, and who have regularly abandoned me when I am needy or there is conflict or something heady going on.
What I believe, is that we subconciously recreate the broken relationship, in order to mend it, to get that original need met, so we can move on. Or maybe not move on, but just because it is something lacking and we crave it.
So we choose partners who are similar in that attempt to recreate.
I don't know about the dynamic with a homosexual candidate - it would be interesting to examine.
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I totally agree with you. I am a nurturer, and attract men whose moms were always pulling them out of the fire. And I keep choosing men like my dad. So, I've decided just to work on my relationship with my dad and get that solid before dating again. Seems legit. Excellent insight, though. We all need healing, eh?
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