I don't know what God has in store for me...
 

I've got to be honest. I've really been discouraged on this whole job-hunting thing. I know it takes a lot of rejections before something comes along, but it sure can start to beat on my self-esteem.

It's been a mixed bag living in a small town. On the one hand, it was a great place to raise kids, and the community was pretty accepting of a 'newbie', even one that had gone through rehab. I moved here in 1986 straight out of rehab because my then AH was violent and psychotic.

I've got a really strong recovery circle locally, and that's a plus.

On the flip side, when it comes to the better jobs, such as at the county health department where I recently submitted a resume, it's not what you know, it's who you know. Sigh.

I had jumped on the position as soon as it came out in the paper. They were looking for a County Health Technician/Healthy Start Home Visitor. My education is in a variety of areas including HIPAA, coding, transcription, pathophysiology, etc.

I didn't even get an interview, and I took this one really hard.

This morning, I had to go to court...again...for medical bills. Ugh. Anyway, as I was sitting there talking to the county attorney, letting him know I was still looking for work, I mentioned that I had just applied for the position at the county health department, but didn't even get an interview.

He looked at me kind of funny and said he had no idea what was up with that position I had mentioned, but he knew of several people working in the courthouse who wanted to transfer over to that position.

Light bulb moment. It has nothing to do with me. It's not what you know, it's who you know, and the government will always hire from within when possible. I've applied for several positions over the years at the courthouse, and have not gotten an interview once.

I know God's got something good in store for me, but it is so hard some days to believe that. I know that right now with 3 summer classes, plus finishing a 4th I'll be done with on the 29th, I wouldn't be able to keep up while working.

I keep telling myself to trust the process. My employment specialist is always singing my praises, but yet I still get in these doldrums where I feel 'less than', that nothing good is going to happen. Ugh.

I don't know how many people have told me they don't think they could handle going back to school. Here I am doing it, and I give myself no credit, none, zilch, zero, nada, zip!

Instead my inner critic is beating me up because I'm not getting straight A's, I'm not working full-time, and let's just toss in that I'm overweight right now :lmao

I think I'm a mess today. Can someone help me get myself glued back together?! :react

*THUD* <----currently unconscious from being called a scintillatingly hot blonde mama :lmao

LOL Yes something good is in store for you. From what little I have learned so far here on the forums you are too good of a person, and smart for something wonderful to not happen.

Are you close to White Cloud by chance? The following is from usajobs.gov. I just entered "coder" and "KS" and this is what it returned. It closes tonight at midnight so if you hurry, you can still apply. If you are interested, PM me your email and I will send you the job announcement.

Job Title: Medical Records Technician (OA)
Department: Department Of Health And Human Services
Agency: Indian Health Service
Job Announcement Number: SER-10-0287R-WC
SALARY RANGE: $38,790.00 - $50,431.00 /year
OPEN PERIOD: Tuesday, June 08, 2010 to Monday, June 21, 2010
SERIES & GRADE: GS-0675-7/7
POSITION INFORMATION: Full-Time Permanent
DUTY LOCATIONS: 1 vacancy - White Cloud, KS
WHO MAY BE CONSIDERED: Applications will be accepted from US Citizens, from current and former competitive service Federal employees, and people eligible under special hiring authorities

Never heard of White Cloud and have lived in Kansas all my life. I had to google it, population of 200, and clear up by Kansas City! I'm down in southcentral Kansas.

Darn!

I recommend letting all the dogs in for a good romp. Or better yet, putting them all in the car, driving them somewhere and letting them run. It always makes me feel better. What size towns are nearby - in commuting distance?

I think you should start an online life-coaching business. You're a natural.:c011:

I've got three choices for commuting, all about 35 miles to the edge of town. There's Wichita (east of me), and I'd rather not. I commuted for a year and a half to that armpit city! I'd rather have a root canal, thank you very much.

I am tops on the list for a position at the Drug/Alcohol Counseling Center in Pratt (35 miles to the west) as the office manager is way past retirement age, and I did an 80 hour community based work assessment there a couple of years ago. Someone needs to tell the current gal she needs to retire now. :lmao

Hutchinson (35 miles north) is around 50,000 I think, maybe more. There's a big medical center, where I already got shot down for a position in HI, but there are a lot of private practices over there too. Most of my instructors are from Hutchinson, and I will probably be doing my clinicals over there.

Right now my main concern is completing summer classes. I'll be done the end of July and then I've got a 5-6 week breather to start looking/applying again.

Thanks for the compliment, but I think I'll stay out of the life coaching, and just throw my two cents in here and there!

Yes dear. :)

If you go back and read my original post, about halfway down, you'll see where I mention that there is no way at this present moment I could work and keep up with summer classes.

Go with the flow. Trust the process. Go with the flow. Trust the process.

*chanting and hopping around the home office now*

I know my company has an area focused on Healthcare - if you dont mind you can PM me and I will give you my email so you can send out your resume, then ill forward it to HR in US.

Many people work from home in this company.

Thanks for reminding me to do the HIPPA course! it was due tomorrow...

HIPAA I meant
I always relate that to "hippo" :)

Maybe right now you are meant to go to school, be with the puppies, and daily inspire ME!

Thank you so much for the compliment! Speaking of puppies, daughter Amber brought her two dogs over, so Miss Dot wore baby Ku'a out and they are all sleeping now. WAHOOOO! :lmao

TC99, your PM box is full. I tried. :)

Quote ((Maybe right now you are meant to go to school, be with the puppies, and daily inspire ME!)) Actually, make that US.

You said you need to just trust God, and I know that His plans will work out for you, in time.
The problem for me, is accepting that He has a totally different view of time to me, understandable when He is the beginning and end of time itself, and I am at best 2/3 of the way thru my life....and there is not much time left.

He must have something really snazzy lined up for you, as you have gone thru so much and never given up the struggle towards your goals.

God bless

God bless