A whole world out there
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A whole world out there
Hello SR!!
I remember just a few short months ago...I was so devasted with what I learned about my stbxah and all he had done I barely left the house. I have no idea what I even did in the month of April other than cry on the floor in a fetal position and beg God to bring my husband back.
That was then. Now I see things differently. I am excited to have my own life and cant wait to get out of the house. I am getting more involved with Alanon. I have my attributes and good qualities written on my wall so Iam forced to look at them all the time to be reminded WHO I AM. (thanks learn2live). I have met new people. I have discovered I really like music. I lost 30lbs. I grew out my hair and today I can even say I find myself attractive, sweet, outgoing and good hearted.
I have discovered there is a whole world out there. I no longer fret that I am 35 and havent had kids yet. My HP is working on that for me. I leave a lot with HP these days.
I am a truly grateful member or SR and Alanon. I am forever indebted to so many people for pulling me off the floor. Literally. I am so blessed that I have all these wonderful people in my life versus the one jerk I married. I can openly say I know he is sick and all but he is a jerk too.
As you know he is getting served divorce papers this week. I am getting the splint off my nose today (woohoo) and have plans for the remainder of the week. I got weepy last night and I was so shocked that I immediately reached out for help and talked myself through it. It was ok to get it out and then I felt much better. The alcoholism and my impending divorce no longer rule my life. My life was upside down for a long time. Today when I find something left over of his that I may have overlooked when kicking him out, no matter what it is or where I am I walk outside and throw it on the ground in the yard. I especially like it when the object is breakable. The neighbors may think I am nuts but hey..It's my life...
xoxo
Lulu
I remember just a few short months ago...I was so devasted with what I learned about my stbxah and all he had done I barely left the house. I have no idea what I even did in the month of April other than cry on the floor in a fetal position and beg God to bring my husband back.
That was then. Now I see things differently. I am excited to have my own life and cant wait to get out of the house. I am getting more involved with Alanon. I have my attributes and good qualities written on my wall so Iam forced to look at them all the time to be reminded WHO I AM. (thanks learn2live). I have met new people. I have discovered I really like music. I lost 30lbs. I grew out my hair and today I can even say I find myself attractive, sweet, outgoing and good hearted.
I have discovered there is a whole world out there. I no longer fret that I am 35 and havent had kids yet. My HP is working on that for me. I leave a lot with HP these days.
I am a truly grateful member or SR and Alanon. I am forever indebted to so many people for pulling me off the floor. Literally. I am so blessed that I have all these wonderful people in my life versus the one jerk I married. I can openly say I know he is sick and all but he is a jerk too.
As you know he is getting served divorce papers this week. I am getting the splint off my nose today (woohoo) and have plans for the remainder of the week. I got weepy last night and I was so shocked that I immediately reached out for help and talked myself through it. It was ok to get it out and then I felt much better. The alcoholism and my impending divorce no longer rule my life. My life was upside down for a long time. Today when I find something left over of his that I may have overlooked when kicking him out, no matter what it is or where I am I walk outside and throw it on the ground in the yard. I especially like it when the object is breakable. The neighbors may think I am nuts but hey..It's my life...
xoxo
Lulu
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Aw LuLu, this is GREAT!!! Thanks for sharing. Keep going back, girl, keep looking at yourself (both the "bad" and the "good") and keep being courageous and working on you and the feelings you feel now looking back on the last couple months will continue and grow until you reach the point where you look back and you do not even RECOGNIZE the person you used to be. Sorry if that was a run-on sentence; I've had a lot of those lately for some weird reason :O)
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Hi, and thank you for posting. Nothing like using the tools we've been given, and seeing how well they work for us.
I've found the black eyed peas on my surround sound Bose speakers to be a great way to kick start my morning! I've got a feeling that today's gonna be a gooot day! ( good night ).
Thanks lulu you inspire me!
I've found the black eyed peas on my surround sound Bose speakers to be a great way to kick start my morning! I've got a feeling that today's gonna be a gooot day! ( good night ).
Thanks lulu you inspire me!
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Wow, lulu, you took everything on (even the stuff you didnt like) and made it work.
Fantastic! Love this post!
and this......
when i thought of you going out and throwing some beer stein (hehehe) on the ground, and smiling a little smile, well, it made my day!
Fantastic! Love this post!
and this......
I walk outside and throw it on the ground in the yard. I especially like it when the object is breakable. The neighbors may think I am nuts but hey..It's my life...
when i thought of you going out and throwing some beer stein (hehehe) on the ground, and smiling a little smile, well, it made my day!
for the post!
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I can attest to the fact that she is a KNOCKOUT
Lu, good job. I'm so happy for you. I recall the whole fetal postion day and then the days following where I started to realize there was life after the ex. Oh, the fun I had!
Pain is a GREAT motivator and a WONDERFUL weight loss program :-)
Lu, good job. I'm so happy for you. I recall the whole fetal postion day and then the days following where I started to realize there was life after the ex. Oh, the fun I had!
Pain is a GREAT motivator and a WONDERFUL weight loss program :-)
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Originally Posted by Summerpeach 
I can attest to the fact that she is a KNOCKOUT
Lu, good job. I'm so happy for you. I recall the whole fetal postion day and then the days following where I started to realize there was life after the ex. Oh, the fun I had!
Pain is a GREAT motivator and a WONDERFUL weight loss program :-)
Lu, good job. I'm so happy for you. I recall the whole fetal postion day and then the days following where I started to realize there was life after the ex. Oh, the fun I had!
Pain is a GREAT motivator and a WONDERFUL weight loss program :-)
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Originally Posted by mrphillipctrs1
I look forward to coming back here soon and feeling the same way!
You are an inspiration!
I've lost 6 pounds already!
You are an inspiration!
I've lost 6 pounds already!
There is light at the end of the tunnel... I can feel it.
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Yes! i LOVE hearing this. I too lost 30 pounds right after learning about my husbands affair, and THIS
are you kidding? You're FREE!! You don't have to deal with that jerk off because of the kids. You can spend a few years sorting this ugly stuff out, figuring out who you are and what you can do and find the man that worships the ground you walk on.
I"m so happy for you. Please keep posting.
I no longer fret that I am 35 and havent had kids yet
I"m so happy for you. Please keep posting.
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I worried about the kids thing too. After expecting to live happily ever after with this man, my first thought after it ended was, "OMG, I'm 32 and I'm going to be too old to have children!"
This thread is a true inspiration!
This thread is a true inspiration!
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