WizeDeb

I know you may not like whoever I turn out to be, but I've got to do it, because... I think I love her.

Thank you NewGirl for the this quote, This has stuck in my brain all day. This is why I asked AH to move out. I wanted to find myself, I wanted a better life for myself and my daughter. I wanted him to get better. Which I had no control over even in his death. Here all this time I thought I was in control when actually it was him who was in control. Even in his death now it feels like he is even in control. If that makes sense. I know its going to take time to let go of these feelings. Just going to have to feel the feelings and then file them away. I now understand I never had control over anything nor will I ever. Except myself. I need to learn how to love myself, I really dont think I ever did truly. Or put an honest effort into it. Too busy taking care of everyone else.

Kittyboo

WizeDeb,

I love that quote. No, LOVE.

I don't know you. Not well at all, but just fyi, I think you are such an incredibly phenomenal woman.

tigger11

Wow Deb- that's a HUGE step! And so soon. I'm in complete admiration of you!

TakingCharge999