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I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who writes on here! I know I don't post very often, but I come here to read several times a day, and it does always make me feel better in some way.

It's been 5 weeks since I've stopped communicating with "my" alcoholic, and emotions have been all over the place. I know the last thing I need is to talk to him, but sometimes I still can't help but be offended that he can't resist calling me! This site has grounded me and reminds me that the biggest kindness he can give me is to stay away.

It's only been in the last week that I've truly realized that he may never get serious about recovery, that he may likely die an active alcoholic, and that even if he does "get better," he may never make an effort to be with me. It's a tough few pills to swallow, but it does help to repeat the mantra that it's not (and never was) about me.

As Pink would say, heartbreak's a mother****er, right? As always, thanks for being here, and hope everyone is having a good weekend.