hmmm, some things that stand out

Missing someone and acknowledging the grief over an ended relationship are natural. I miss my (ex) fairly regularly. Sometimes I allow myself to romanticize for a few moments and remember the good times, but at the end I always do a reality check with the way things are. And the way things are, is that he has a sickness I can't cure, and it was killing me inside to be with him.

Hope is another story altogether. When I was 'hoping", I was still trying to predict and/or control the outcome and make it something wonderful. I still hope for him to be well someday, but I stay rooted in the realities of now, which are that he and I are done, and that I am in a much better place on my own, working on me.

The fact that he only cheated on you because ___________ is you still making excuses for him honey. I hope you can take a good long time to do serious work on you, and discover the things in life that bring you joy, and learn to set boundaries that protect you from things that hurt you, long before you consider being in a serious and committed relationship.

Last, I agree with sailorjohn. There are other recovery sites out there he can find himself with a little effort. I almost gave this site to my ex because I was so worried about him, but honestly if I had, I would not have been able to speak freely here and utilize SR to its full potential. I believe SR has been one of the most important tools I have in my recovery, and I wouldn't want to guess at where I would be right now without it.

I know I shouldn't. I'm trying to find more people. A reason I tried to find a place like this.