FINALLY a Happy Day
 

Hi everyone!

I went to my first al anon meeting a week ago, and I felt pretty empowered coming out of it. I recognize I've got to make some changes within myself, such as paying attention to what makes me happy, and setting boundaries for what is acceptable and not acceptable.

This weekend was an exercise in self improvement....

Friday night I was invited to a party to celebrate a friends birthday. I argued with myself for a while, then decided not to go. As I lay in bed that night I really began to question why. The conclusion was I decided not to because it would upset my x, and i didn't want to do that because we had been getting along. The other reason was I still don't trust that my x is not drinking, and feel I can deter him if I'm here. ..... DUH (don't worry, I know Im a dip stick)

Saturday I went to a meeting, and talked this out, which really made me feel codependent and insecure. So, to improve in that area, I set a goal for myself. Every day I will do something that is for me, about me, and will make me happy, and it will not matter what the x thinks of it.

So I spent the rest of the weekend going to see those friends that I kept "putting off" in order to avoid a fight. I also went for a 15 mile bike ride for the first time in 2 years! YAY!

It sucks that I've lived for so many years in what I now see was an absolutely destructive environment....It is becoming painfully obvious that I totally forgot who I was in order to take care of him.

This is a great personal victory for me, and I thought I'd share it with you.

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AWESOME...just awesome!
Sounds like an excellent plan that will lead to positive changes!!
peace,
b

Awesome! :You_Rock_

I loved your daily goal, can I steal it?

You are doing great!!

Opening your eyes is painful but the only way to take better decisions in the present and future... way to go :You_Rock_

LOL, 3 people gave you the :You_Rock_ icon in less than a minute at the same time!

Means we must be right then?! :c032:

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Okay, no you rock 'cause it takes me too long to pull them up with my internet connection ;)

Sounds like you're doing great Romey!

HAHAHA! Yes, of course you can "borrow" my goal. Today I will not rush home, but will play ball with a group of friends and hopefully NOT twist my ankle again ;)

If this computer would spit out coins, it would more than likely crash from the overload!

(However, if it does start ringing like crazy and pouring out money, dinner is on ME!!)

Romey, I looked up "ankle problems" in Louise Hay's Heal Your Body and it says

Ankles: Inflexibility and guilt.

Ankles represent the ability to receive pleasure.

Your healing affirmation is: "I deserve to rejoice in life. I accept all the pleasure life has to offer."

Sounds like a good affirmation to say as you embark on your plan!!!
peace,
b

I will steal that affirmation too

LOL I am just lurking and robbing all the ideas :You_Rock_ :You_Rock_ :You_Rock_ ANY COINS YET!!?

Just to be different...

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:You_Rock_
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Darn...no coins YET!!!

How many more does this thing need

:You_Rock_ :You_Rock_ :You_Rock_

There is nothing like sucking in that first deep, clean breath of fresh air after being suffocated in a bad relationship for so long.

Im glad you can have happy days. They're wonderful, aren't they?

Yeah that breath of fresh air does wonders for the spirit.

Last night after ball I was cleaning out my desk and came across some old pictures of me, my ex, and some friends. They were taken over 10 years ago and I was stunned at how happy, healthy and young I looked.

My first reaction was "What the H*LL happened to me? Where did I go?" immediately followed by resentment and anger toward HIM. After a brief moment I realized I can't blame him anymore...its MY fault not his. Those pictures showed that there is a part of me that I forgot about....and I am determined to get myself back!

SO since my computer just shot out all those coins, dinner is on me! HAHA!

Awesome!! Where are we going? (GL rubs hands together) :D