Had a great time!
"Taking the risk to blossom"
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Had a great time!
One of the things that has kept me stuck for so long is the fear of being alone. My AH and me were ALWAYS together -- when we weren't at work, we would be together.
Last night, my co worker invited me over for dinner and some "stand up comedy tapes". There were five of us there, three of us "single". It was lovely! We laughed our "guts" out which felt sooooo good.
For the first time in a long long time, I went out, was in the moment, enjoyed myself and didn't give a second thought as to what my A was doing, who he was with, whether he was using or drinking. I was amazed at how there was no "pang" in my gut all night. I was truly enjoying myself.
I even had a voice mail from him that I just totally ignored -- I promised I wouldn't listen to it. At first, for a brief second, I awfulized and thought, what if one of the kids where hurt or his mother. But I redirected my thoughts to "if that were true, the phone would be ringing off the hook". I still haven't listened to it. I figured out that it was an old message and I didn't need to hear it.
I am proud of myself today. I have no anxiety and am going for a nice long walk with my doggies to enjoy this beautiful taste of spring!
Laurie
Last night, my co worker invited me over for dinner and some "stand up comedy tapes". There were five of us there, three of us "single". It was lovely! We laughed our "guts" out which felt sooooo good.
For the first time in a long long time, I went out, was in the moment, enjoyed myself and didn't give a second thought as to what my A was doing, who he was with, whether he was using or drinking. I was amazed at how there was no "pang" in my gut all night. I was truly enjoying myself.
I even had a voice mail from him that I just totally ignored -- I promised I wouldn't listen to it. At first, for a brief second, I awfulized and thought, what if one of the kids where hurt or his mother. But I redirected my thoughts to "if that were true, the phone would be ringing off the hook". I still haven't listened to it. I figured out that it was an old message and I didn't need to hear it.
I am proud of myself today. I have no anxiety and am going for a nice long walk with my doggies to enjoy this beautiful taste of spring!
Laurie
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