Moving forward
 

I want a divorce.
The good news is: I'm getting one :)

I saw the lawyer today, and, I am happy to say, P is complying with all my requests (though he made a futile (and ridiculous) attempt to convince me to remove the 24 hour ban on alcohol consumption before his visitation with DS).

P alternates between sad, angry, and hopeful. I dislike his pain, but it's not overwhelming me. We are being very civil and kind. It's weird looking at him and not seeing my husband, talking to him and not saying "I love you." But, the weirdness will lessen over time, I'm certain. I deal with it now by communicating mostly via email.

What a change! When I chose to separate I was a sobbing mess of hope and disappointment and fear. I moved out because I HAD to for my sanity, not because I wanted to. I wanted to be with P. I wanted him to love me and behave.

No more. I want to be free.
Everyday I get to take steps that are in my best interest, and it feels wonderful.

Thank you to everyone here.
-TC

TC,

You sound really great.

It is encouraging to hear how well you have handled things.

Miss

Go you!!!:You_Rock_

:ghug3

You are an inspiration! I'm so happy for you and the bright future you are embracing!

I was feeling a little tired, my daughter is sick, money issues and beginning to doubt myself. Your post is like a b-12 shot!

You are aware of your feelings and your stbx's feelings. You are considerate of all of these things. You accept them as what they are. AND you are sticking to the action that will bring you peace!

She is awesome isn't she? :c011:

Thanks and God bless us all,
Coyote

Your strength is my inspiration. Congratulations on handling this with grace and confidence!

As always- you are an inspiration. You sound good. . . keep on truckin'!

:Val004:

You rock, TC.

I know how hard you've worked to get to this place, and I'm so proud of you.

:ghug3

Can I just say that I could have wrote that first quote...word for word?(except substitute the P with a D lol) I will give kudos to you, me and anyone else that has HAD to walk away from someone they love without really "wanting" to - it takes a STRONG soul to make that choice. :c011:

And honey - I've been free now for 9 months and it is the BOMB!! Don't get me wrong - you will have your laying in the floor in a fetal position moments at the beginning probably - but they will get less and less. You don't have to answer to anyone but YOU know and it is an amazing feeling.

All my best to you. Peace and strength.

:dance3:

Congrats to you! You sound like you are moving forward with your life and doing well! That is inspirational! Thanks!

You give me hope.

:You_Rock_ :You_Rock_ :You_Rock_ :You_Rock_ :You_Rock_

Yeah!!!!

I'm so happy. Not only have you inspired me, you've given me the courage and strength to make changes of my own, so thank you. x