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Old 01-20-2009, 01:06 PM
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Hi everyone, I'm new here and have never really talked about any of this stuff on any kind of board. Anyway, here's my situation: I have the world's greatest mom... when she's sober. When she drinks, she turns into a completely different person and can be truly nasty and mean. She's been struggling with alcoholism for the past 20 years (ever since she found out my father had been cheating on her for a long time). She recently got sober for four months, and I was so incredibly happy, but just recently she's relapsed. I am so torn and don't know what to do because I don't know if I should detach myself emotionally or run to her house and calm her down everytime she drinks. I'm 28 years old, and I live with my husband very nearby, and everytime she's upset and drinks, I feel this responsibility to go over there and help her. It's tearing me apart, though. I can't bare the stress of trying to constantly calm her down, and I can't bare the stress of wondering when she's going to call me needing help. I love her so incredibly much, and everytime she's sober, the thought of detaching myself seems crazy because she's so wonderful when she doesn't drink. It's just really hard to get through so many ups and downs with her. Her behavior is so unpredictable. The other piece is that I have a teenage sister living at home, and I feel a need to protect her and calm things down for her sake. Thank you for reading this and letting me vent.
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Old 01-20-2009, 04:50 PM
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Sorry you are in the midst of this. Kepe reading and posting and learn all you can. Try AlAnon. And yes, detaching is best for you. You cannot control your mother and her drinking. Only she can choose to do that. Is there any way your younger sister can move out?
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Old 01-20-2009, 05:34 PM
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Hi putnam,

This is a great place for venting People here have been through it all, and we understand what you're feeling pretty well.

I wish there were some easy solution I could offer....but there really isn't one. Your mother's choice to go back to drinking isn't something you can control. You'll read that here often, in fact: you didn't cause it, you can't control it, you can't cure it.

I had the same problem as you are with detachment -- I wanted to be there for my sisters and brother when they were sober, but couldn't stand the pain of being with them when they were drunk. I too thought that "detachment" meant I wasn't there for them. That was a kind of black-and-white thinking that I discovered didn't have to be true for me.

It really takes some work, but I can tell you first hand what worked for me: I made it clear to all of them that if they contacted me while they'd been drinking, I would end the phone call (or not return the email or voicemail). I told them I loved them, told them how disturbing it was to see them killing themselves, and hoped they would choose sobriety. I was there to support them when they wanted to be sober, but I refused to engage with them when they didn't.

It was hard, but it was worth developing this skill, step by tiny step. Al-Anon helped a great deal, as did a little personal counseling. ALSO, the things you describe about yourself are common traits of adult children of alcoholics....the guilt...the obsession with helping....etc. I see you've also posted on the Adult Children board on this forum and that's great!! There's a lot of great support over there too, and be sure to read the Stickie posts at the top of both forums.

Educate yourself all you can. You will learn this isn't your fault, and you can't make it go away -- BUT you don't have to stop loving your mom.

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