Light at the end of the tunnel...
 

Hi everyone -

I'm mostly a lurker but have posted once before.

Last Tuesday, my AH started Antabuse! WOW!! What a difference!!

He has been doing great and I see the person I knew was there but who was hiding.

He made the decision by himself to start (he was going to wait until after New Year) and has been SO calm. This is the man I knew was trying to come out but was afraid to.

I am so proud of him for making this step. I do not know what tomorrow will bring but I do finally see a light at the end of the tunnel.

I pray for all of you that your "drinker" will see that the path they are on is going nowhere, and make the change you have been wishing for.

I also pray that my "drinker" will see that the person he was is not a person his friends and family want to be around. I do not know how long this will last but I am cherishing every sober moment with him.

I thank God for this reprieve from the anger and uncertainty. I now have strength to hang on a little longer.

Happy New Year to you all, wherever you are in your journey. Your stories have strengthened me. I am not alone. Nor are you.

S

:bbf:

I hope this is the beginning of recovery for him. And you.

This is a tough statement to make when you are feeling so happy about your AH's steps toward recovery but........

Remember that it is his recovery. Try not to hang your hopes on it. That puts a terrible burden on him and sets you up for disappointment. What do you do instead? Concentrate on you. You are the one thing in this life that you can control. Cherish his sobriety but make sure you are taking care of yourself.

Happy New Year. May 2009 bring good things to you, your husband, and your family.

gentle hugs