I feel lost...
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I feel lost...
My dh and I have been married for 4 years. I have no doubt that he is an alcoholic. He drinks at least 5 days a week. Beer during the week, jack and coke on the weekends. We just had an episode Wednesday night where he said some things he shouldn't have said to make matters worse, he said them in front of his daughter(17). Now he is trying to shift the blame of what happened to me.
DH made the comment that I could leave and I could take his daughter with me for all he cared. He has since apologized to me but not to her because she doesn't want to talk to him. She was crying hysterically when she heard him say that and I told him to leave her alone and just go to bed. He wouldn't do it. He wanted her to tell him that she didn't want to talk to him. She's afraid of him so she wouldn't verbalize anything except to me. I repeated told him to leave her alone or we were leaving. He wouldn't stop so we left.
Now he is saying that my behavior was completely wrong and his daughter is being melodramatic. Yesterday he was sorry and wanted to apologize and the such. Today he is trying to shift the blame.
I feel so bad for her. Her mom is a piece of crap. She hasn't spoken to her daughter in 2 years. Her dad is an alcoholic who basically just said that he didn't want his daughter. Of course, now he's just saying we took it out of context. We both now that he loves his daughter and wants her there.
That's one issue I have the other is she and/or I always have to go pick him up. I understand the responsibilty of having a designated driver and him not drinking and driving. I'm glad he's not. But by her having to take him and drop him off and then pick him up, she says she feels like the parent. I can understand her point. He on the other hand says we are both dead wrong and that what he is doing is exercising responsible drinking. I don't know I feel like I'm banging my head on the wall.
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DH made the comment that I could leave and I could take his daughter with me for all he cared. He has since apologized to me but not to her because she doesn't want to talk to him. She was crying hysterically when she heard him say that and I told him to leave her alone and just go to bed. He wouldn't do it. He wanted her to tell him that she didn't want to talk to him. She's afraid of him so she wouldn't verbalize anything except to me. I repeated told him to leave her alone or we were leaving. He wouldn't stop so we left.
Now he is saying that my behavior was completely wrong and his daughter is being melodramatic. Yesterday he was sorry and wanted to apologize and the such. Today he is trying to shift the blame.
I feel so bad for her. Her mom is a piece of crap. She hasn't spoken to her daughter in 2 years. Her dad is an alcoholic who basically just said that he didn't want his daughter. Of course, now he's just saying we took it out of context. We both now that he loves his daughter and wants her there.
That's one issue I have the other is she and/or I always have to go pick him up. I understand the responsibilty of having a designated driver and him not drinking and driving. I'm glad he's not. But by her having to take him and drop him off and then pick him up, she says she feels like the parent. I can understand her point. He on the other hand says we are both dead wrong and that what he is doing is exercising responsible drinking. I don't know I feel like I'm banging my head on the wall.
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Welcome to SR, sgroy2003. Glad you found us.
You're familiar with the term enabling?
A classic example is helping an alcoholic to keep getting drunk by chauffering him around "so he doesn't get in trouble." That's protecting him from the consequences of his actions, so he can continue to do what he wants.
I use a lot of soft language on this forum, and try to avoid terms like "Right" and "Wrong." But his daughter is dead right. I'm astonished that he, or you, would tolerate his abusing his daughter in that way. Does she have any choice in this? Who is telling her she has to do it? And why? She should not be responsible for carting around a drunk -- something that NO ONE should be doing anyway.
Where's your confusion in this?
What do you want to do? Is all of this okay with you?
Is this abusive life the one you dreamed of when you were a little girl? Is it doing anyone any good but him?
Hope and strength to you,
You're familiar with the term enabling?
A classic example is helping an alcoholic to keep getting drunk by chauffering him around "so he doesn't get in trouble." That's protecting him from the consequences of his actions, so he can continue to do what he wants.
I use a lot of soft language on this forum, and try to avoid terms like "Right" and "Wrong." But his daughter is dead right. I'm astonished that he, or you, would tolerate his abusing his daughter in that way. Does she have any choice in this? Who is telling her she has to do it? And why? She should not be responsible for carting around a drunk -- something that NO ONE should be doing anyway.
Where's your confusion in this?
What do you want to do? Is all of this okay with you?
Is this abusive life the one you dreamed of when you were a little girl? Is it doing anyone any good but him?
Hope and strength to you,
You cannot change him or his behavior--but you can seek help for you and your/his daughter. Alanon can help you. Alateen and/or Alanon can help her. And as far as dropping him off/picking him up....I assume you are referring to a bar or someplace where he drinks. That needs to stop. He can find his own way there and back--by you or someone else picking him up you are enabling his behavior by being a part of it. He can call a cab to take him to/from the bar. He can pay his own way if drinking means that much to him.
You are not responsible for him--only for yourself and your well-being. He will continue to take advantage of you and your daughter if you allow him to. Does he want to stop drinking? If not, little can be done for him--but there is alot of support out there for you and your daughter. No one deserves to be taken hostage by an alcoholic who abuses them verbally, emotionally etc. You are not alone. Keep reaching out for help. I'm glad you are here.
You are not responsible for him--only for yourself and your well-being. He will continue to take advantage of you and your daughter if you allow him to. Does he want to stop drinking? If not, little can be done for him--but there is alot of support out there for you and your daughter. No one deserves to be taken hostage by an alcoholic who abuses them verbally, emotionally etc. You are not alone. Keep reaching out for help. I'm glad you are here.
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Welcome to SR, sgroy2003. Glad you found us.
You're familiar with the term enabling?
A classic example is helping an alcoholic to keep getting drunk by chauffering him around "so he doesn't get in trouble." That's protecting him from the consequences of his actions, so he can continue to do what he wants.
I use a lot of soft language on this forum, and try to avoid terms like "Right" and "Wrong." But his daughter is dead right. I'm astonished that he, or you, would tolerate his abusing his daughter in that way. Does she have any choice in this? Who is telling her she has to do it? And why? She should not be responsible for carting around a drunk -- something that NO ONE should be doing anyway.
Where's your confusion in this?
What do you want to do? Is all of this okay with you?
Is this abusive life the one you dreamed of when you were a little girl? Is it doing anyone any good but him?
Hope and strength to you,
You're familiar with the term enabling?
A classic example is helping an alcoholic to keep getting drunk by chauffering him around "so he doesn't get in trouble." That's protecting him from the consequences of his actions, so he can continue to do what he wants.
I use a lot of soft language on this forum, and try to avoid terms like "Right" and "Wrong." But his daughter is dead right. I'm astonished that he, or you, would tolerate his abusing his daughter in that way. Does she have any choice in this? Who is telling her she has to do it? And why? She should not be responsible for carting around a drunk -- something that NO ONE should be doing anyway.
Where's your confusion in this?
What do you want to do? Is all of this okay with you?
Is this abusive life the one you dreamed of when you were a little girl? Is it doing anyone any good but him?
Hope and strength to you,
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"I'm being responsible, I'm making sure that I have a designate driver to come pick me up. I'm utilizing my family - there is nothing wrong with that."
So how to I get him to understand that what he is doing is making us responsible for his actions. He refuses to even discuss it because he says I'm wrong.
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I guess he just twists my thinking so much sometimes, it makes me second guess my initial reaction and think that I'm wrong.
He sounds very controlling and manipulative from what you've said.
For example, you say "he'll make his daughter take him."
How would he "make her" ? Does she have any free choice in this matter? Would she have your support if she were to say no?
Many of us (myself included) stayed trapped under the thumb of an alcoholic's controlling tactics for a long time because it seemed like the end of the world if setting boundaries would initiate a fight, or if we might get a tongue lashing for being right. We try hard to not rock the boat; we walk on eggshells.
You are in the right here. This is no way to live - not for you, not for daughter. Have you considered trying out an Al-Anon meeting or two in your area? Lots of us have found great support, ideas, and relief that way--those meetings (for loved ones of alcoholics) helped me with clarity, detachment, and problem-solving skills, and it can be such a HUGE relief to be around people who know what you're going through!!
Otherwise, you're getting your whole story from an alcoholic, who is bent on only telling you HIS twisted truth.
Take care sgroy :ghug3
For example, you say "he'll make his daughter take him."
How would he "make her" ? Does she have any free choice in this matter? Would she have your support if she were to say no?
Many of us (myself included) stayed trapped under the thumb of an alcoholic's controlling tactics for a long time because it seemed like the end of the world if setting boundaries would initiate a fight, or if we might get a tongue lashing for being right. We try hard to not rock the boat; we walk on eggshells.
You are in the right here. This is no way to live - not for you, not for daughter. Have you considered trying out an Al-Anon meeting or two in your area? Lots of us have found great support, ideas, and relief that way--those meetings (for loved ones of alcoholics) helped me with clarity, detachment, and problem-solving skills, and it can be such a HUGE relief to be around people who know what you're going through!!
Otherwise, you're getting your whole story from an alcoholic, who is bent on only telling you HIS twisted truth.
Take care sgroy :ghug3
Alcoholics are good at manipulating those around them or trying to anyway. As long as he gets his way--all will be well. They don't like change. They like what is comfortable or familiar to them. Keep posting. You are not alone.
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