Reddmax

I %$## did it again. I have boundaries about alcohol and the servant syndrome. I failed to enforce them last night. I'm mad at myself, because it led to other things that I shouldn't be doing either.

Living with an active alcoholic is so draining. It's always me, me, me, me, and never about anything else. I am so sick of that behavior.

I admitted to my therapist that I'm having problems letting go. This is such a painful process, and your head an your emotions always disagree.

I'm frustrated, tired, and irritated.

Redd

Barbara52

It happens. Forgive yourself for being human and move on. Progress not perfection as they say.

McKrazy

Oh Red, you are SOOOO not alone! Hang in there and start fresh and do the next right thing.

grateful2b

ditto on the forgiveness...we've all been there..
This is a marathon, not a sprint.
the upside of mistakes is we get to learn from them and become stronger each time..., grateful

Bernadette

Ditto McKrazy: do the next right thing.
B.

juju

Jeez, Redd, I’m so with you. I did the same thing last night. Allowed myself to get angry and spiteful and smart-a$$. I just think about all the crap I’ve dealt with over the years, and figure I’m due to dish it every once in a while. Right or wrong, it is what it is. We all make mistakes. But the last thing we need to do is add more guilt to ourselves. Our a’s give us plenty of that!

I did apologize to ah for my “misbehavior”. Not so much that I was looking for *his* forgiveness, but I needed to acknowledge my mistakes and make amends for them for my own peace. Whether he forgives me or not, his choice.

juju

dolphingal1971

I know exactly how you are feeling. Focus on you for a change and doing what is right for YOU and your sanity. :codiepolice

LucyA

I messed up too today. I decided I was allowed, and I've learned from it so maybe I needed to mess up to learn what I did.
Give yourself a break Redd, no ones perfect, we all mess up from time to time, learning from it is what's important.