How long will the nice phase last this time?
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How long will the nice phase last this time?
I'm pretty new here, but I've posted some about my AH and my struggle to decide whether to stay in the marriage or not. Surprisingly enough, it seems that he has figured out that something is up with me and is working on being really nice. There hasn't been a major incident in a little more than three weeks, and even the minor blowups have been few and far between. He has been on the verge of a major fight a couple of different times, but he has "caught himself" before he let it go too far.
It makes me doubt myself and my intentions. It's not that I think he has really changed per se; he's still drinking and using after all. It's just that I think he is trying to be on his best behavior because he can sense that something is in the air. He has been pressing me to tell him I love him, to be intimate with him, etc. I've told him what he wants to hear, but I don't know if I mean it. I can't go through with any intimacy; it just doesn't feel right.
Today, he asked me point blank if I had spoken with any divorce attorneys. I was honest and told him I hadn't, but I did not go out of my way to be reassuring or anything. Part of me wishes he would just leave me, that would be the easy way out.. I don't think that will happen though. I'm just not sure of my strength and resolve in this whole situation. I can't help but ask myself how long the nice phase will last this time; I know it's not forever.
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It makes me doubt myself and my intentions. It's not that I think he has really changed per se; he's still drinking and using after all. It's just that I think he is trying to be on his best behavior because he can sense that something is in the air. He has been pressing me to tell him I love him, to be intimate with him, etc. I've told him what he wants to hear, but I don't know if I mean it. I can't go through with any intimacy; it just doesn't feel right.
Today, he asked me point blank if I had spoken with any divorce attorneys. I was honest and told him I hadn't, but I did not go out of my way to be reassuring or anything. Part of me wishes he would just leave me, that would be the easy way out.. I don't think that will happen though. I'm just not sure of my strength and resolve in this whole situation. I can't help but ask myself how long the nice phase will last this time; I know it's not forever.
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I knew it was only a matter of time.
I started out reading this board to see if the "wonderful" person I knew my husband to be would ever reemerge from his miserable addiction, but, for me, after too many cycles of pain followed by "making nice", I started to wonder if my true husband wasn't actually showing himself during the drunken, screaming stupor.
Sounds like you just know what's coming.
I'm wishing you peace during this crazy time.
-TC
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That's the thing, Barbara52, his newfound "niceness" confuses me and makes me question what I was beginning to think was a given - that I was going to leave the marriage. It's like he does things that make me question my sanity. Am I seeing things clearly? Or is my thinking twisted because of him? Sometimes I think I need a reality check...maybe that's what I'm looking for here.
I do know that the stress of his drinking, using, and anger have begun to take a significant toll on my body. My blood pressure has been really high this week, I've had a few blood vessels burst in one of my eyes, so my doctor has added a new medication to help control my bp. The emotional stuff is beginning to physically weigh on me now.
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I do know that the stress of his drinking, using, and anger have begun to take a significant toll on my body. My blood pressure has been really high this week, I've had a few blood vessels burst in one of my eyes, so my doctor has added a new medication to help control my bp. The emotional stuff is beginning to physically weigh on me now.
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Its possible its deliberate manipulation because he sees changes in you that tell him his world may be turned on end.
Remember that actions speak louder than words. Other than superficial niceness, has he changed his behavior? It doesn't seem so. Your pain on the other hand is increasing to the point where you now need meds for your BP.
Remember that actions speak louder than words. Other than superficial niceness, has he changed his behavior? It doesn't seem so. Your pain on the other hand is increasing to the point where you now need meds for your BP.
That's the thing, Barbara52, his newfound "niceness" confuses me and makes me question what I was beginning to think was a given - that I was going to leave the marriage. It's like he does things that make me question my sanity. Am I seeing things clearly? Or is my thinking twisted because of him? Sometimes I think I need a reality check...maybe that's what I'm looking for here.
I do know that the stress of his drinking, using, and anger have begun to take a significant toll on my body. My blood pressure has been really high this week, I've had a few blood vessels burst in one of my eyes, so my doctor has added a new medication to help control my bp. The emotional stuff is beginning to physically weigh on me now.
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I do know that the stress of his drinking, using, and anger have begun to take a significant toll on my body. My blood pressure has been really high this week, I've had a few blood vessels burst in one of my eyes, so my doctor has added a new medication to help control my bp. The emotional stuff is beginning to physically weigh on me now.
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My sincere, deepest sympathy. I think this is a great example of the insanity of alcoholism - blood vessels are bursting and I'm asking "am I crazy?"
Our doctor told me point blank I was killing myself and would be dead before AH. Last year my mother-in-law ended up in the hospital for major heart surgery. I do not know if she survived. (FIL is alcoholic)
Doctor's visits, Al-Anon, therapy - all helped me understand I was not nuts, and that alcoholism was killing ME, the non drinker.
Take care.
Our doctor told me point blank I was killing myself and would be dead before AH. Last year my mother-in-law ended up in the hospital for major heart surgery. I do not know if she survived. (FIL is alcoholic)
Doctor's visits, Al-Anon, therapy - all helped me understand I was not nuts, and that alcoholism was killing ME, the non drinker.
Take care.
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My AH has also been doing something very weird. My good friend who went through a very nasty divorce several years ago called it "campaigning." I hadn't thought of it that way before, but it makes sense now that I think of it.
I have very little family left, and my AH has been calling my dad regularly and talking with him for a long time without telling me about it or giving me a chance to talk to him. I only find out about it after the fact. It doesn't help that my dad is also an alcoholic who has been through three prior failed marriages himself. Something about it just isn't sitting right with me, but I hadn't been able to put my finger on it until now.
I also discovered, accidentally, that my AH has been in new, frequent contact with his mother, stepfather, brother, and sister. While he would speak with his mom once a month or so, he is now in much more communication with them. And before he wouldn't speak to his brother or sister for several months at a time, and suddenly he's super close to them and talking on the phone more than once a week? Again, it's just a little odd.
I'm not saying he shouldn't be having these relationships with them, far from it. I'm just saying they are out of character for him..of course, none of those people know who he really is. His entire family doesn't even know that he drinks after all. Again, it's making me feel a little bit crazy...sorry to ramble...
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I have very little family left, and my AH has been calling my dad regularly and talking with him for a long time without telling me about it or giving me a chance to talk to him. I only find out about it after the fact. It doesn't help that my dad is also an alcoholic who has been through three prior failed marriages himself. Something about it just isn't sitting right with me, but I hadn't been able to put my finger on it until now.
I also discovered, accidentally, that my AH has been in new, frequent contact with his mother, stepfather, brother, and sister. While he would speak with his mom once a month or so, he is now in much more communication with them. And before he wouldn't speak to his brother or sister for several months at a time, and suddenly he's super close to them and talking on the phone more than once a week? Again, it's just a little odd.
I'm not saying he shouldn't be having these relationships with them, far from it. I'm just saying they are out of character for him..of course, none of those people know who he really is. His entire family doesn't even know that he drinks after all. Again, it's making me feel a little bit crazy...sorry to ramble...
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That's the thing, Barbara52, his newfound "niceness" confuses me and makes me question what I was beginning to think was a given - that I was going to leave the marriage. It's like he does things that make me question my sanity. Am I seeing things clearly? Or is my thinking twisted because of him? Sometimes I think I need a reality check...maybe that's what I'm looking for here.
I do know that the stress of his drinking, using, and anger have begun to take a significant toll on my body. My blood pressure has been really high this week, I've had a few blood vessels burst in one of my eyes, so my doctor has added a new medication to help control my bp. The emotional stuff is beginning to physically weigh on me now.
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I do know that the stress of his drinking, using, and anger have begun to take a significant toll on my body. My blood pressure has been really high this week, I've had a few blood vessels burst in one of my eyes, so my doctor has added a new medication to help control my bp. The emotional stuff is beginning to physically weigh on me now.
T
I have unfortunately been through something like this, although it was not as intense as your situation. Your AH is "rallying the troops" to his way of thinking in case you decide to walk. A's can be incredibly convincing in getting family and friends to see you as the wicked, evil witch. Particularly when they sense you are thinking about moving on.
His newfound "niceness" should not confuse you. He's manipulating. He's working on your head to convince you that he loves you. If you don't respond appropriately, or reciprocate in kind, he has all those folks to back him up. After all, he's been filling their ears with God-only-knows-what type of garbage. You leave. You become the bad guy. He becomes the poor husband/victim who was trying to save the marriage. After all, he told so many family members how hard he was trying, didn't he?
This man is still using. Consider that explanation enough as to whether or not his new-found "niceness" is an act.
His newfound "niceness" should not confuse you. He's manipulating. He's working on your head to convince you that he loves you. If you don't respond appropriately, or reciprocate in kind, he has all those folks to back him up. After all, he's been filling their ears with God-only-knows-what type of garbage. You leave. You become the bad guy. He becomes the poor husband/victim who was trying to save the marriage. After all, he told so many family members how hard he was trying, didn't he?
This man is still using. Consider that explanation enough as to whether or not his new-found "niceness" is an act.
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Do you think it's wrong of me to deny it when he asks me if I'm planning on leaving him? He has asked me that several times in the last two or three days, and I have denied it. My way of thinking is this: I haven't made up my mind if/when for sure yet; I don't want to give him any advance warning because I don't trust what he might do with our property/money/pets/etc; I don't want to put him in another position of power over me. Am I being unfair?
I haven't met with any attorney yet, so that part was the truth. I do have a call in to my brother, who is an attorney, telling him I'd like to meet with him to discuss a personal matter. He hasn't gotten back in touch with me yet, and now I'm feeling a little paranoid and thinking he may have given AH the heads up about it either accidentally or on purpose. He and my AH do talk occasionally.
Sorry to be such a bother with all my rambling and questions...I'm just feeling at a loss here and need some guidance. Thanks for all that thave responded so far.
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I haven't met with any attorney yet, so that part was the truth. I do have a call in to my brother, who is an attorney, telling him I'd like to meet with him to discuss a personal matter. He hasn't gotten back in touch with me yet, and now I'm feeling a little paranoid and thinking he may have given AH the heads up about it either accidentally or on purpose. He and my AH do talk occasionally.
Sorry to be such a bother with all my rambling and questions...I'm just feeling at a loss here and need some guidance. Thanks for all that thave responded so far.
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Do you think it's wrong of me to deny it when he asks me if I'm planning on leaving him? He has asked me that several times in the last two or three days, and I have denied it. My way of thinking is this: I haven't made up my mind if/when for sure yet; I don't want to give him any advance warning because I don't trust what he might do with our property/money/pets/etc; I don't want to put him in another position of power over me. Am I being unfair?
I haven't met with any attorney yet, so that part was the truth. I do have a call in to my brother, who is an attorney, telling him I'd like to meet with him to discuss a personal matter. He hasn't gotten back in touch with me yet, and now I'm feeling a little paranoid and thinking he may have given AH the heads up about it either accidentally or on purpose. He and my AH do talk occasionally.
Sorry to be such a bother with all my rambling and questions...I'm just feeling at a loss here and need some guidance. Thanks for all that thave responded so far.
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I haven't met with any attorney yet, so that part was the truth. I do have a call in to my brother, who is an attorney, telling him I'd like to meet with him to discuss a personal matter. He hasn't gotten back in touch with me yet, and now I'm feeling a little paranoid and thinking he may have given AH the heads up about it either accidentally or on purpose. He and my AH do talk occasionally.
Sorry to be such a bother with all my rambling and questions...I'm just feeling at a loss here and need some guidance. Thanks for all that thave responded so far.
T
So, protect yourself! Do you go to al-anon meetings?
I haven't met with any attorney yet, so that part was the truth. I do have a call in to my brother, who is an attorney, telling him I'd like to meet with him to discuss a personal matter. He hasn't gotten back in touch with me yet, and now I'm feeling a little paranoid and thinking he may have given AH the heads up about it either accidentally or on purpose. He and my AH do talk occasionally.
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