Vomit on the toilet...Uhm wonder who was in the house
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Vomit on the toilet...Uhm wonder who was in the house
I have been away for a week. I dropped my 23 y o AS off at his Dad's house before I left with specific instructions that I didn't trust him and that he was not to go to my house while I was gone. I got home from the airport at 2 am last night. Today I notice that the bathroom next to his bedroom has vomit all over the toilet. My guess is, obviously he used my house while I was gone. He is no different than when he was a teen. He wanted to be trusted when he came home in August to live after 5 yrs away. Before my trip I told him that it was sad for me to see that he was romancing drugs again and that I could tell that his drinking was accelerating. I guess I have my proof.
Also, in my mail that was waiting for my return is a warrant for his arrest.
He was doing so very well for a few months when he 1st returned. He had put on much needed 15 pounds, was going to therapy, looking for a job, etc.
Then little by little the behaviors started inching back.
Relapse is ugly, disappointing, sad and like watching an impending train wreck.
I want him to change. Apparently he is not ready. It is sad to witness alcohol and drugs take him back from me once again.
Also, in my mail that was waiting for my return is a warrant for his arrest.
He was doing so very well for a few months when he 1st returned. He had put on much needed 15 pounds, was going to therapy, looking for a job, etc.
Then little by little the behaviors started inching back.
Relapse is ugly, disappointing, sad and like watching an impending train wreck.
I want him to change. Apparently he is not ready. It is sad to witness alcohol and drugs take him back from me once again.
i wish i could help. i can't even imagine how hard this is for you. all i can say is go easy on yourself.Member
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I'm so sorry. As mothers, we can always see through the addiction to the beautiful child they once were. We can always see the wonderful, talented, adult they could be. They give us brief glimpses of that when they stay on the straight and narrow for a week or a month or two. They look better. They feel better. And we let our guard down and think "ah they'll do it this time." and then BAM. We find vomit on the toilet or they reek of alcohol or just become mean and nasty. It's so hard to go through that cycle over and over again. I hope you can feel my arms wrapped around you and know that I understand what you are going through. Rest your head on our shoulders here and breathe.
Do something special for yourself tonight......something that really makes you feel good. You deserve it!!!!
gentle hugs
ke
I'm so sorry. As mothers, we can always see through the addiction to the beautiful child they once were. We can always see the wonderful, talented, adult they could be. They give us brief glimpses of that when they stay on the straight and narrow for a week or a month or two. They look better. They feel better. And we let our guard down and think "ah they'll do it this time." and then BAM. We find vomit on the toilet or they reek of alcohol or just become mean and nasty. It's so hard to go through that cycle over and over again. I hope you can feel my arms wrapped around you and know that I understand what you are going through. Rest your head on our shoulders here and breathe.
Do something special for yourself tonight......something that really makes you feel good. You deserve it!!!!
gentle hugs
ke
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Oh Spirit, I am sorry you had to come home to this.
I remember my oldest was the biggest liar. He would lie, I would catch him, and he would stand there and insist I didn't trust him, and that was wrong of me!
He's had a while clean right? Here's hoping that he remembers the clean days and how good they felt. Then, drugs will look like the enemy.
Hugs to you.
I remember my oldest was the biggest liar. He would lie, I would catch him, and he would stand there and insist I didn't trust him, and that was wrong of me!
He's had a while clean right? Here's hoping that he remembers the clean days and how good they felt. Then, drugs will look like the enemy.
Hugs to you.
get it, give it, grow in it
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No sign of my son
I am carrying on today with absolutely no fear, doubt or worry.
Went to visit a friend who just had major plastic surgury.
Oh my...there is a lot of pain and suffering in the name of vanity.
My son may be relapsing, but ya know what, I am not \ Yea for me.
Went to visit a friend who just had major plastic surgury.
Oh my...there is a lot of pain and suffering in the name of vanity.
My son may be relapsing, but ya know what, I am not \ Yea for me.
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Originally Posted by Spiritual Seeker 
I am carrying on today with absolutely no fear, doubt or worry.
Went to visit a friend who just had major plastic surgury.
Oh my...there is a lot of pain and suffering in the name of vanity.
My son may be relapsing, but ya know what, I am not \ Yea for me.
Went to visit a friend who just had major plastic surgury.
Oh my...there is a lot of pain and suffering in the name of vanity.
My son may be relapsing, but ya know what, I am not \ Yea for me.
I'm doing a little jig in your honor! It's wonderful that you can stay focused on your own recovery!
ke
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