Jenny79

I was outside today and ran into my ex-boyfriend's care provider.She then went inside and told him that she had seen me.Now they both have been knocking on my door.

Been feeling like I can't sit outside in the court yard of our condo complex without being seen by him,her,his "roommate",friends.I was starting to have some peace of mind and sleeping through the night.Still miss him and love him.

He can't give me what I need nor does he really even try.If he loves me then why does he treat me and everyone else in his life like crap?I remember seeing him before we met.He was different back then and its been a slow decline since in more ways then one.Can't get him out of my head.I've been praying for a sign from god about if I'm doing the right thing for both of us by not seeing him.

I have nowhere to go nor have any money since I can't get a job.I'm now starting to have health problems of my own and need things done like MRI's,etc..

Jenny

shakarris

Jenny - I am so sorry that you are going through this. It must be very hard being that close but you have to do for you, especially with your health.

posting here helps. People who have more time into this are here and have wonderful words of wisdom

be strong

shakarris

rawr_x

hey jenny, dont feel bad,just stay positive. trust me it helps a lot.

i had a rough night last night and the only way i made it through school was by staying positive.

i hope you feel better

-much love