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Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Shores of Lake Erie
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thank you
These past couple of months have been the hardest thing I have ever endured...when he was alive I worried whether or not he was safe but he always turned up and called he always came back to me- always proclaimed his love for me and the girls etc... I miss him, don't miss the drama though. The last time I talked to him he was upset with me that does bother me, he made his choice.
I have tried going to meetings thinking they would help, all i do is get upset and can't share. Visiting these sites helps- reading how other people have coped and are still coping. Every day gets a little better, I notice little things like not checking my phone for his call, stopped doing a double takes at cars like his, thinking about something funny and dial his number. Slowly I am learning to live my life without him- 30 years with him, 2 months without. I keep telling myself that he was plagued with dis-ease and was gone years ago.
All your understanding and kinds words goes a long way in overcoming this tradegy. Thank you all, you are the few who understand my life and have insight in how I hate this disease. Bill was one of the few unfortunates in the program...such a waste!
Laura
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I have tried going to meetings thinking they would help, all i do is get upset and can't share. Visiting these sites helps- reading how other people have coped and are still coping. Every day gets a little better, I notice little things like not checking my phone for his call, stopped doing a double takes at cars like his, thinking about something funny and dial his number. Slowly I am learning to live my life without him- 30 years with him, 2 months without. I keep telling myself that he was plagued with dis-ease and was gone years ago.
All your understanding and kinds words goes a long way in overcoming this tradegy. Thank you all, you are the few who understand my life and have insight in how I hate this disease. Bill was one of the few unfortunates in the program...such a waste!
Laura
ODAT
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Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Shores of Lake Erie
Posts: 19
This the prayer that I put on his funeral card:
Prayer of St. Francis
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Prayer of St. Francis
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
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