QU31

Hi everyone, I feel like I am totally having a codie relapse! I don't know if it is the loss of control that makes me anxious or the anxiety that makes me want to control everything! I find it so hard to deal when the future is uncertain (duh, I know, it is always uncertain!) My boyfriend (in recovery for about a year), whom I live with, lost his job last week and it's a fact the money from his paycheck is going to stop coming in. I don't know how we will pay the mortgage next month...Plus, he is getting used to his new meds (just diagnosed with bipolar) and he's been acting a little strange to say the least.

Plus, when I get this huge urge to control/anxiety thing going on, I start to get really paranoid....like is he drinking? Is he lying to me about things? Then I feel guilty for that, realizing this is part of the whole dysfunctional dance I do in my head. Seriously though, I don't know what we're going to do about money if he doesn't find a new job soon. We never had to face this, even when he was drinking. Turn it over, I guess, is my only option?

Then, I just found out my little sister, who has borderline personality disorder is drinking again, which is really not good, since she has a history of suicide attempts while drinking.

I'm totally on a pity pot. I know I'm having a relapse when I'm on that damn pot. I feel better after venting (so thanks for reading) but need to snap out of this and get back on track!

cmc

What I'm getting anxious, here's what helps me to calm down and refocus:
Pray
Talk to a friend
Come here to SR
Go to a meeting
Exercise
Go to another meeting
Read
Watch a funny dvd
Work in my garden

Spiritual Seeker

Breathe. How about a bath with candles. Then make a list of your options that you do really have control over.

QU31

You guys are awesome...I was going to try to go to two meetings tonight! I think I will swim too...that always seems to help.