Cry Not Me!
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Cry Not Me!
After a weekend of sorting out who was going to look after her small dog we worked it out and today I drove her to rehab again. I have done this many times before, that much that I know these places well now. But today was different, we drove up, took her bags out of the boot. Walked up to the detox door which has horrible metal windows and a peek a boo door at the front. Announce who you are and they let you in. What a place, and we go in and hand over all her belongings, sign in and which bed do you want for 2 or3 days before we take you to the rehab building for 3-4 months if she lasts that long.
Hugs and goodbye, I didnt want to let go of her. Got inside the car and broke down. Sad hey...no its destroying, watching this and hoping that she wants it bad one day..more than me. Now I drive home to cook tea, then I have to go to her place to do a few things and wonder as I walk out the door. Will i sleep tonight. and will she.
Hugs and goodbye, I didnt want to let go of her. Got inside the car and broke down. Sad hey...no its destroying, watching this and hoping that she wants it bad one day..more than me. Now I drive home to cook tea, then I have to go to her place to do a few things and wonder as I walk out the door. Will i sleep tonight. and will she.
Gratitude to be found here. She is sober today, she is in a safe place, she is getting the treatment she needs. She is with those her can teach her a better way to live. You should sleep well tonight.
Justjo both of you are in my prayers, you have done for her today the only thing you will ever be able to do for her and her sobriety, nothing more could you have done, because by doing anything more then what you just did would simply allow her to drink longer.
Now is the time to take care of justjo.
Now is the time to take care of justjo.
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It was an emotional day and I needed you guys. thanks. I called her today and they had taken her over to the rehab building. She sounded ok but nervous too. I didnt say anything other than I love ya sis and I would look after her house and things. My eldest son is staying at her house and looking after her dog that she adores, so we think we have done the right thing. I figured if she went in this time and new my son and I were watching things she wouldnt fret so much.
Crazy you know.......sitting here tonight I started thinking about when we were kids. I am the oldest 9 years older than her and I remember as kids I would always protect and look after her and give her hugs. It feels the same way again now but I am 49 and she is still 4. And I dont know if the gap will ever close.
Crazy you know.......sitting here tonight I started thinking about when we were kids. I am the oldest 9 years older than her and I remember as kids I would always protect and look after her and give her hugs. It feels the same way again now but I am 49 and she is still 4. And I dont know if the gap will ever close.
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(((JUST))))) You did a wonderful thing for your sister! Prayers to all of you.
The gap will never close with love between siblilings-I'm the youngest of 9-and my sister who is 10 years older than me has been there for me in many ways and I with her-it is a good feeling when it is a healthy way of caring for each other!
Hang in there! Cry all you need to it cleanses the body! I know I did alot of that this past week-due to putting my dog down (18 years old) so do what you need to do for YOU now...you have done what you can and leave the rest to the wonderful man upstairs!
The gap will never close with love between siblilings-I'm the youngest of 9-and my sister who is 10 years older than me has been there for me in many ways and I with her-it is a good feeling when it is a healthy way of caring for each other!
Hang in there! Cry all you need to it cleanses the body! I know I did alot of that this past week-due to putting my dog down (18 years old) so do what you need to do for YOU now...you have done what you can and leave the rest to the wonderful man upstairs!
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peaceful prayers going up for you and healing prayers for your sis. i understand how hard this is. serenity prayer cannot be worn out. i know, cause i tried one time. it works, justjo. it really, really works.
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Thank you for sharing this, justjo. Two years ago my older brother followed an ambulance that took me to a mental hospital. I have no doubt it was one of the hardest things he's ever had to do for me. I was one month sober, and felt like I was losing my mind. After a series of evaluations I was discharged three days later with the understanding that I was an alcoholic and that I needed AA. This time my younger brother picked me up. We're all in our 30's and 40's. For the first time in my life I realized how much unconditional love my brothers had for me. The gap closed and our bond is stronger than I thought was possible. I'm sure your sister feels protected by you, and knows that you're a blessing in her life.
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