Becoming ME
Becoming ME
It has been 2 days for me and I already see the difference. I m much kinder, less short and irritated with everyone around me. I have been fighting the "snooping" urge, it's hard, sometimes I just want to scream, becasue of the obsession this has become, but Im doing ok....I have started to do things for me, little things, reading, watching some TV shows that I could never watch with him in the room.
When you aren't looking at the "comments" that someone always tries to point out what is wrong with you - with blinders on, and you swear that they are specifically targeted towards you, as I tend to think. You start to notice that the things that are said are to make you react, and when you don't react.......THINGS CHANGE......to quote my (A) husbend, "trying to fix what is wrong with other people, lets you forget about what is wonrg with you"..... (Smart man)it's time I stop listening....
To all of you, I have to say Thank you.....This place is my Al-Anon meeting, and all of you have made me dfind the strength that I had knew existed.
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When you aren't looking at the "comments" that someone always tries to point out what is wrong with you - with blinders on, and you swear that they are specifically targeted towards you, as I tend to think. You start to notice that the things that are said are to make you react, and when you don't react.......THINGS CHANGE......to quote my (A) husbend, "trying to fix what is wrong with other people, lets you forget about what is wonrg with you"..... (Smart man)it's time I stop listening....
To all of you, I have to say Thank you.....This place is my Al-Anon meeting, and all of you have made me dfind the strength that I had knew existed.
http://www.storagesearch.com/recovery.gif[/IMG]
Sunshine
And it just keeps getting better and better. Oh there are obstacles that catch us off guard sometimes, but the more we work the program, the better it works for us.
Learning that we do not have to participate in their chaos, is a huge lesson and a big step forward. Instead of "reacting' we learn how to 'act" with thought and calmness. We learn to say what we mean and mean what we say, and to do that we need to be balanced.
And learning that we are not the "drug detectives" anymore, takes a huge load off our shoulders.
Give yourself a big hug, straighten your well-earned tiara, and just keep doing the "do" things.
And it just keeps getting better and better. Oh there are obstacles that catch us off guard sometimes, but the more we work the program, the better it works for us.
Learning that we do not have to participate in their chaos, is a huge lesson and a big step forward. Instead of "reacting' we learn how to 'act" with thought and calmness. We learn to say what we mean and mean what we say, and to do that we need to be balanced.
And learning that we are not the "drug detectives" anymore, takes a huge load off our shoulders.
Give yourself a big hug, straighten your well-earned tiara, and just keep doing the "do" things.
Hiya Sunshine!
Well that was a feel-good post if I ever saw one. You're letting yourself out of the cage... congratulations! And thanks for sharing... we all need inspiration.
(Ann... about this tiara... I've been kind of partial to the helmet for a couple of weeks and the tiara just doesn't fit. Not over and not under. So I glued some rhinestones to my hard hat. I'm sending the crown back to supplies and requisition.)
HUGS!
Well that was a feel-good post if I ever saw one. You're letting yourself out of the cage... congratulations! And thanks for sharing... we all need inspiration.
(Ann... about this tiara... I've been kind of partial to the helmet for a couple of weeks and the tiara just doesn't fit. Not over and not under. So I glued some rhinestones to my hard hat. I'm sending the crown back to supplies and requisition.)
HUGS!
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