question for recovering A's
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question for recovering A's
Just curious...
For those who lived with denial of having a problem, was there one event that led to you finally admitting you had a problem and started seeking help?
I just find it interesting that some stay in denial forever and others don't. In your opinion, why is that?
For those who lived with denial of having a problem, was there one event that led to you finally admitting you had a problem and started seeking help?
I just find it interesting that some stay in denial forever and others don't. In your opinion, why is that?
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some use are sicker than others.
some of us has a higher tolerance for pain.
Some of us just thought..this is the way is it or the normal
thing to do.
Some of us was taught form day one to live this way.
Some of us try to do along or by ourselves.
some of us are not in denial but have so much guilt and shame.
Some of us are just plain hard headed..
Some of us are clue less...becuase only the looser in life
have those types of problem..pride
Some of us just don't really care one way or the other..
as for me....
Some of us just do it out of rebelion..just sick and tire
of being told what to do, how to live, what to belive
how to think. We do it out of fuastrations and feel trap
by all the damn rule and some one's idea of morals
or vaules are..that crap gets cram down our throat.
We see it... rules only applied to us but not to
to special moral people that preach it.
Sick and tired of the lies..So we destroy our lives
on purpose..just to say.Becuase it's all f- up anyways.
realality..who's freaken realality...
I'm freanken in control..
yes..it's destructive..but I'm in control..
don't tell me you love me..don't fix me..don't tell
me to straighten up. You're just about as blind and as lost as i am.
It's actaully just a test..just to see if you really freaken care..
just so you will love me as I am ...not what you want me to be.
i would travel to the end of the earth, if you could just love me
as i am...Am capiable..but i didn't wanna play the damn game
anymore. I've become so numb..more like me and less like you.
Well... there no rules in AA or NA for reasons..for people like me.
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE...I test it from every angle in AA or NA.
it was there where i found it. it was there, that I took down my
walls. it was there that I stopped seeing life through double visions. it was there that i wanted to feel again
some of us has a higher tolerance for pain.
Some of us just thought..this is the way is it or the normal
thing to do.
Some of us was taught form day one to live this way.
Some of us try to do along or by ourselves.
some of us are not in denial but have so much guilt and shame.
Some of us are just plain hard headed..
Some of us are clue less...becuase only the looser in life
have those types of problem..pride
Some of us just don't really care one way or the other..
as for me....
Some of us just do it out of rebelion..just sick and tire
of being told what to do, how to live, what to belive
how to think. We do it out of fuastrations and feel trap
by all the damn rule and some one's idea of morals
or vaules are..that crap gets cram down our throat.
We see it... rules only applied to us but not to
to special moral people that preach it.
Sick and tired of the lies..So we destroy our lives
on purpose..just to say.Becuase it's all f- up anyways.
realality..who's freaken realality...
I'm freanken in control..
yes..it's destructive..but I'm in control..
don't tell me you love me..don't fix me..don't tell
me to straighten up. You're just about as blind and as lost as i am.
It's actaully just a test..just to see if you really freaken care..
just so you will love me as I am ...not what you want me to be.
i would travel to the end of the earth, if you could just love me
as i am...Am capiable..but i didn't wanna play the damn game
anymore. I've become so numb..more like me and less like you.
Well... there no rules in AA or NA for reasons..for people like me.
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE...I test it from every angle in AA or NA.
it was there where i found it. it was there, that I took down my
walls. it was there that I stopped seeing life through double visions. it was there that i wanted to feel again
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I just couldn't take his behaviors anymore. I was too angry most of the time or too scared he was going to hurt himself or someone else while out drunk.
He wasn't at any point to decide he wanted to change. So was I supposed to just live with it because I care? He never communicated anything. Just said do what I have to do.
It's just so hard to truly know if it was the right thing even after a year.
Some days I really wish I would have stayed and learned how to do so.
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