sthrnraizd

It seems like it's been forever since I posted last. My trip away to Ireland was wonderful. Everything pretty much I hoped for. No stress, no watch ~meaning no time to adheire to at anytime.
I was completely at peace with being alone in Dublin. I walked and walked and walked and saw many things.
I shopped and shopped and shopped :-) I am all set to update my fashion appearance to watch i saw in EU fashion world. And it felt to good to be doing somehting completely for me! Raising my standard much higher than it has been in a long time.
And the (I no longer want to call him my anything...) exAbf only crossed my mind a few times...and that was very nice.
Now that im back and in the same neighborhood as he thoughts of him have crossed my mind many times so far and that sucks! I am pretty sure he got on the bridge this morning just a few cars behund me and it caused my heart to pound! And that sucked, I do not want any reaction when it comes to thinking or seeing him. But all in time....
My life has taken such a wonderful change! I have soooo many activities going many times a week and throughout the month. All things I wouldnt be doing it the exAbf was still in the picture.
I start college again on MOnday! I have two new cooking classes this month....
.....My life is just so full now....and full of healthy things!
I've missed you all! Take Care :-)

minnie

Oh wow!!! I was in Dublin this weekend!! I did the true Dublin shopping experience - Brown Thomas for browsing and Penny's for buying.

You are sounding so good. Proud of you.

elizabeth1979

Life is meant to be lived not endured, right?
Awsome for you..
Ive always wanted to go to Ireland..looks beautiful there!

CE Girl

Welcome Home Sthrnraized!!!!!

Girl, you give me SUCH HOPE!!!!!

Happy, Happy, Happy,,,,

But I'm not gonna let you off the hook,,lol

I hated the heart pounding thing. I don't know if it gets something started chemically in our codie brains, but usually, for me, it began the "thoughts"

Which if not halted QUICKLY could bring on the OBSESSING.

Your right, all in due time,,,

But in the meantime, be vigilant.

Now that your home, besides making a fashion statement what are you gonna do for YOU.

By the way, I MISSED YOU

Peace

sthrnraizd

I signed up for two more cooking classes and Salsa dancing...
Im still seeing the good Doc but only everyother week now...
I start college on June 4th...
I've been reading some great books..The Dance of the Wounded Souls...great read!

The only thing that sucks is having the exAbf only living a few blocks away. If he left the city and went back home to his momma's tit as he said originally it would be easier. But, it still gets easier, I just hate looking for the big black truck to be on the same bridge as myself every morning.

Oh well, screw him, he is a looser because he choose a bottle over unconditional love. And I am off to enjoy my new wonderful life :-)

Rella927

Welcome home sthrnraizd !!!

You go girl!! Enjoy that life! Sounds wonderful!!

denny57

Sounds great sthrnraizd - glad you had a great Ireland trip.

twinsis

You sound like you are doing great. Doesn't being strong and independent feel good?

LGLG07

Thats great for you ! big big ((()))s!!
Keep pushing forward ! Those times of thinking of him will soon be fewer and further between !

TriciaW

When you speak of your trip and your life with him excluded it appears so bright and good. The darkness comes when you speak of him. Stay in the light girl! You are one of the lucky ones!!