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You are allowing yourself to heal, to feel the pain of many years of things you bottled up or explained away. This hurts but it is progress, it is necessary. Your body and mnd is purging itself of a toxin. These feelings and these tears have to come. Somewhere deep inside this is the reason we tolerate so much, we know how painful it will be to look at all of it, feel all of it and admit that it is what it is.
If you realized how necessary this all is and that it is progress, it might be easier to endure. If he walked throught the door drunk right now, or you looked forward to going home to an empty house with him dragging in sideways eventually, You'd cry these tears until they were all gone. They will dry up. The sun will come out. True love will then be able to find you. I have been exactly where you are. The best days of my life followed exactly what you are experienceing and they couldn't have come if I had not gone through this process.
If you realized how necessary this all is and that it is progress, it might be easier to endure. If he walked throught the door drunk right now, or you looked forward to going home to an empty house with him dragging in sideways eventually, You'd cry these tears until they were all gone. They will dry up. The sun will come out. True love will then be able to find you. I have been exactly where you are. The best days of my life followed exactly what you are experienceing and they couldn't have come if I had not gone through this process.
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Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: Oklahoma
Posts: 1,170
I know! I'm not mad at Prodigal at all! It was the push I needed! It just so happened I got that one and an e-mail from a friend saying the same thing at the same time.
Reality sunk in big time, you know!? But I'm glad it did. It forced onto the right road!
Reality sunk in big time, you know!? But I'm glad it did. It forced onto the right road!
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Join Date: Apr 2005
Location: Phoenix, AZ
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Chero.... let try it this way....
You can call him................When you can call him and not cry before hand, when you have no doubt, fear, and when your stomach does not knot up just thinking about calling..... When your sure the call will be well received and there will be no rejection.
Because you should not be calling anyone that makes these emotions come to the surface first. That is not healthy for you and you are the #1 priority....
You can call him................When you can call him and not cry before hand, when you have no doubt, fear, and when your stomach does not knot up just thinking about calling..... When your sure the call will be well received and there will be no rejection.
Because you should not be calling anyone that makes these emotions come to the surface first. That is not healthy for you and you are the #1 priority....
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