Dolorosa

My ex-husband abused benzodiazepines along with alcohol, and I was wondering if anyone else here has an A like that. He would go to his doctor, ERs, and medical clinics to get more and more. It's a wonder he's still alive. I used to say he was having an affair with "Pam" (Clonazepam, Lorazepam, Diazepam etc.).

He also took other muscle relaxants and smoked pot...and who knows what else.

Cynay

Ouch .... *hugs to you*

I dont have that experience but good heavens that is alot to deal with.... You would never know who was there!

I just wanted you to know I hear what you are saying.

Dolorosa

Hi Cynay,
Thank you for responding, even though you haven't had experience with this.
He was like a zombie a lot of the time...and I'd get so ANGRY. "How dare you do this?" I would think. It wasn't fair to me or the kids that he was always in a state of perpetual numbness. Looking back on it now, I can't believe I put up with it for so many years. What was I thinking???

angelonmyshould

What were you thinking? My guess was that you love him and you want your family to stay together. My AH didn't do pills but he drank a 30 pack every single day until he got sober. He was numb every day. So I know what I was thinking by staying.

GlassPrisoner

I couldn't get 'em. I tried.

The Dr. gave me some once to taper off of alcohol with. I chased them in the parking lot with warm Vodka.

What were we thinking ? We weren't. Especially not about those around us. I don't miss that at all.