he just got arrested
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jeri jeri jeri 
way to go there sist'a
xxoo ya............................... rz
tow it, i say.
i was not afraid!!!!!!!!!!! the fear was gone!!!!!!!!!
i tossed it in the ole bass-o-matic for a spin and a chop, chop.
way to go there sist'a
xxoo ya............................... rz
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today, well, today has been kinda rough. sentimentality washing over me at times. i expect this....so for today, it's been an hour at a time to keep myself from going on a huge rescue mission. i've tried all day to turn my will back over...
the rescue mission would be for me only...it would serve no benefit to heighten the quality of my life....it would only soothe my feelings at the moment.....my fear of facing the hurt feelings, i reckon. the hurt feelings of the paradise lost. of what could have been. of what was never.
i keep seeing his hands from the night he was arrested here....they were white as snow.....except for the knuckles and finger joints....they were a dark purple......his finger tips were splotchy reddish-dark....very dark and very splotchy. they looked like the hands of a dead man. they looked dead.
although he looked very clean, the odor he emitted was very strange....a weird alcohol smell that absolutely filled up the entire office within just seconds. i've never smelled it quite like this....and believe me....i'm very experienced at his alcoholic aromas.
i don't think he has too many more of these in him.....
serenity prayer....it cannot be wore out....i've tried
love to all
jeri
the rescue mission would be for me only...it would serve no benefit to heighten the quality of my life....it would only soothe my feelings at the moment.....my fear of facing the hurt feelings, i reckon. the hurt feelings of the paradise lost. of what could have been. of what was never.
i keep seeing his hands from the night he was arrested here....they were white as snow.....except for the knuckles and finger joints....they were a dark purple......his finger tips were splotchy reddish-dark....very dark and very splotchy. they looked like the hands of a dead man. they looked dead.
although he looked very clean, the odor he emitted was very strange....a weird alcohol smell that absolutely filled up the entire office within just seconds. i've never smelled it quite like this....and believe me....i'm very experienced at his alcoholic aromas.
i don't think he has too many more of these in him.....
serenity prayer....it cannot be wore out....i've tried
love to all
jeri
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Originally Posted by embraced2000 
my fear of facing the hurt feelings, i reckon. the hurt feelings of the paradise lost. of what could have been. of what was never.
I hope today brings you some peace...you are doing SO good. I know we get tired of being strong. Hope our hands holding you up are helping.
Take care
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I remember that sickly sweet alcoholic smell. I will never forget it. It was so sad as I watched my XW get thinner and thinner, losing muscle mass....and that smell.
Hang in there. Nothing you can do except help yourself. You made the right decision.
Hang in there. Nothing you can do except help yourself. You made the right decision.
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