ladymzvee

Ode to Alcoholic

I looked out you and saw something
you looked at me and knew something
a lost soul having found someone
a soul having someone to use
my world was you and you my world
you were your world and I was yours to whirl
if only I said, in spite of you said
a look an image the desire to be normal
a look, a scent the desire to drink-
reaching new heights achievement together
sinking to new lows destroying altogether

if I medicate then its all great
if I just appreciate it will be great
who knew you like I did?
the glass
who understood u like I did?
the barkeep
who satisfied you like did?
the bottle

She won- she’s stronger, and prettier
she always wins, you always forgive her
I told her told to leave she knew shed be back
I told she was not welcome, she had keys

You whispered to her sweet nothings
I shouted obscenities
You told her she was all that you needed
I told her she need not come round
She just never left

So I pronounce u betrothed
Man and wife, man and drink
Husband and wife, wife and drink
To have and to hold
Until death do you part

To this ceremony I was a participant
now I have become a witness,
and tomorrow I will be an attendant
Next week I shall be an R.S.V.P.

Next month I will be Anonymous
Next year I will be someone who never knew
the power the strength that I gave you...

You will never more define me
Take from me or hurt me
I know who I am and for this

An Ode to an Alcoholic...

JessicaNAJ

Thank you for sharing

embraced2000

thanks for sharing, lady
sounds like you've been there....
hope all is going well for you and you will share more of your story with us.

blessings
jeri

ladymzvee

Thanks embraced- I actually posted this as Ode to An Addict- as my plight is 9 years with a crack addict.
I am also the adult child of an alcoholic, my father with whom I no longer have a relationship at all.
The struggle with my partner ends today as I am packing up and walking away, so today is my Independence Day!
Look for my postings in freinds and family of substances abusers.
I like this place- it feels like "home"

LadyMzVee

Cynay

Happy Independence Day to you Lady.

Sometimes I did not know which was harder the fighting or the giving up. Both are really painful but in giving up I can find peace.... there is no peace in the fight.