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Good To Be Home...But Brrr!

Posted 04-01-2013 at 12:36 PM by wiscsober
Updated 04-03-2013 at 05:26 AM by wiscsober

Travel is fatal to prejudice, bigotry, and narrow-mindedness.” – Mark Twain

Insanity is living in Wisconsin and thinking it won't be cold in April. Damn it's cold.

I arrived home to yesterday afternoon greeted by a friend. Indeed he is a good friend. I made sure my sons knew I got back safely. It was pure joy visiting them. I am a proud father. Twice in the last nine months, sober, I have visited them. The trip might have come off if I had been drinking, but I can’t imagine what would have happened.

Insanity would have been acting on the thinking that I could drink responsibly and have a great vacation. Thanks to the AA program I thought and acted sanely. Alcohol is not a choice no matter what my addict voice says. Just because I think of a drink doesn’t mean it is a choice. Sobriety is the only choice.

Over the past two weeks I’ve seen the results of working all of the steps; and how it affected my relationships with the boys, one’s wife and another’s girlfriend. I did not have to apologize for being an absent father. I had conversations about my actions and inaction during their childhoods but in the context of who I am presently. I didn’t put on any airs or contention. What they got was my true self.

I told my children, “I am what I am.” I enjoyed being with a son when he received a telephone call informing him he was selected for a dream job. Another one had me visit a prestigious film school he attends, and I watched another plant part of a garden which he always love to do.

The time I spent beforehand attending meetings, times with sober friends, and helping other alcoholics and Al-Anoners gave me insurance guaranteeing a sober vacation. I kept in touch with an AA member back home, spent time online at soberrecovery.com, and perused the Los Angeles area AA websites. I was never alone, never felt alone, nor isolated from what keeps me sober.


Though flying standby is taxing, the flight connections went smooth. I enjoyed watching how thousands of people lived their daily lives. I smiled and acted friendly, and other people responded in a kind way.

It is good to be home. I was homesick by the time I left. I spent quality time with my cat and he gave me a grand homecoming, but on his terms.

I am excited to attend my home-group tomorrow morning and share the good news.
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    Opivotal's Avatar
    Sounds like you had a lovely, sober vacation. You should feel amazing. What a way to "walk the walk".
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    Posted 04-01-2013 at 07:15 PM by Opivotal Opivotal is offline
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    chicory's Avatar
    I could feel the joy in your post. It makes me happy to read a post like this, happy for you, and your sons.
    How nice you had such a rewarding vacation!
    thanks for sharing about it,
    hugs
    chicory
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    Posted 05-21-2013 at 03:03 AM by chicory chicory is offline
 


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