If you are totally stressed out, nothing is going right, your memories are haunting you, you are not appreciated for all your hard work, and life just currently sucks....
DO NOT DRINK!
You CAN get through the night! All the emotions that are on fire will subside eventually. Feel the pain, feel the burn, so you can wake up in the morning and be PROUD of who you are and what you can accomplish! Don't ever go back to Day 1, ever again.