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DAY 59 - Drunk Dreams

Posted 02-26-2019 at 07:24 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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Have you ever had a dream (or nightmare) where you have given up on your sobriety and gave into a drink? I keep having those dreams. Last night I was wasted drunk in my dream and having a great time at a resort on a beach. Drink after drink, dancing and laughing and having a "what the hell" attitude. I didn't feel any remorse or regret in my dream. I wasn't worried about consequences. I didn't care that I was embarrassing myself. It was so vivid, like I still feel it actually...
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DAY 57 - Free Bird

Posted 02-24-2019 at 07:23 AM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
Tags alcoholism , free , mom , wine , wino

My mood is somewhat stabilizing. I don't feel like I am on a roller coaster of emotions anymore. I don't feel bat sh*t crazy. It was extremely bad in the beginning, especially the first 30 days. I am close to 2 months sober now and not having to plan my days around my depression, anger, anxiety, loneliness and sadness. I am rarely having to fight off childhood memories, I think that's best part of reaching this far. I am able to be intimate with my husband, and actually allow myself to enjoy...
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Day 30 - Not Sober

Posted 04-14-2017 at 08:25 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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Yep. I drank. I let my Sober Sister down, although she is still incredibly sweet since my confession.

Visiting Texas, away from my husband, away from Washington. Are you as disappointed as my mother? She is very disappointed, holding her Chardonnay in her hand. Okay she didn't have a Chardonnay in her hand but she literally told me she was so disappointed. The glass in hand will happen later at 5:00 pm.

So, spilling the beans, I had a margarita at a Mexican...
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Day 20 - Bruises

Posted 04-05-2017 at 08:48 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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I cannot tell you how many bruises I have had throughout my drinking days. It was kind of like a game, 'Name That Bruise'. I would wake up and think super duper hard, where the heck did that come from? I'm so lucky I never lost a tooth or broke my nose. I would wake up and have bruises on my cheekbones, my nose would be tender, and I would lay there the next morning in bed trying to remember where did I fall this time? I kind of...
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Day 19 - Sick

Posted 04-05-2017 at 08:45 PM by LoveHateMerlot (Diary of Wino)
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Body aches, sore throat, headaches, and fatigue and already I can tell you it's going to be a lot easier to manage since I am sober and feeling healthier lately. If I felt like I was getting sick, before getting sober, I may have taken the night off from drinking depending on how bad I felt. So when I didn't drink if I was too sick, I would always wake up the next day with a bit of pride for not drinking the night before. It didn't matter,...
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